Hm

[commanderkari]

The sound of his voice comforts me immensely.
Because it makes me feel as though things are back to normal.
But when I think of how it used to be
I miss how it used to be. 
I miss the way he made me feel. 
It's not the same being his friend.
Well it is, but it's not.

I miss how he used to be.
I miss the 'us' not the 'me and him'

So what. 
I want him back.
But I can want all I want to.
I'd never go through with it even if he was still interested.

I can't trust him not to hurt me again.
I can't trust any of it. 
I can't trust him not to use my feelings against me. 
I can't trust myself to forget it. Or forgive it.

When well I let it go?