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I had a conversation with Zak a couple nights back about plans for the future, during which I was a little buzzed but had a sinking sensation about where I'm headed that stuck with me til tonight. He said I shouldn't worry about it, to just try and live in the moment. Not worrying is funny advice coming from Zak, but its still good advice. I acknowledge that wasting today worrying about tomorrow is definintely not a good way to go. But to not even think about it? I don't need every step of my life planned before I take my next one, I just want to figure out what direction to walk in.
But what if there are no ultimate goals to worry about? What if thats the less defined path we've been trying to find that we have this crazy desire to follow? After all, not everyone walks on the paved roads. Maybe it would make more sense going from day to day, meeting challenges as they come to us and letting the process of trying to live up to the people we think we should be take the mainstage in our lives. Its time we should just let go of those final shards of the idea that we have to live up to the expectations other people have for our lives. Maybe we should start expecting other people to accept what we have in mind for ourselves instead of trying to work their plans for us into what we want. We want the people important to us in our lives to be happy, but moreso we want to find whats truly important in our lives that will make us happy. For many people, I imagine, living up to these expectations might make you happy, whether they come from your parents, society as a whole, your significant other, whatever, so all I'm here to say is that whatever road you think you should be on is the place you should be.
I'm not trying to pawn this off as original thinking, I've probably even written about this before myself. But still, every now and then its worthwhile to set down thoughts like this just so you don't forget what makes you who you are.
But what if there are no ultimate goals to worry about? What if thats the less defined path we've been trying to find that we have this crazy desire to follow? After all, not everyone walks on the paved roads. Maybe it would make more sense going from day to day, meeting challenges as they come to us and letting the process of trying to live up to the people we think we should be take the mainstage in our lives. Its time we should just let go of those final shards of the idea that we have to live up to the expectations other people have for our lives. Maybe we should start expecting other people to accept what we have in mind for ourselves instead of trying to work their plans for us into what we want. We want the people important to us in our lives to be happy, but moreso we want to find whats truly important in our lives that will make us happy. For many people, I imagine, living up to these expectations might make you happy, whether they come from your parents, society as a whole, your significant other, whatever, so all I'm here to say is that whatever road you think you should be on is the place you should be.
I'm not trying to pawn this off as original thinking, I've probably even written about this before myself. But still, every now and then its worthwhile to set down thoughts like this just so you don't forget what makes you who you are.