and when you hold me im not so lonely
"all the time you felt so free. did you forget how much you once loved me?"
i really dont understand. i thought everything had passed, i thought you were okay, i thought i was okay. i hate being so fucking naive. and so fucking sensitive. i put myself out on a limb and the majority of time it goes completely unnoticed. i hate the word "comfortable". its soo much bullshit. in a relationship you should never become "comfortable" because then everything you worked so hard for turns to shit. you worked so hard. maybe its not the word "comfortable" that i hate maybe its the being taken advantage part that i hate. i know im being dramatic but fuck off. im sick to death of myself. i hate feeling ugly...in every possible way. im sick of laughing at stupid peoples fucking jokes. and you just dont care.