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It's absolutely insane how nice I am to people. I get walked all over by some of my so-called "closest friends". Anyone else I know would go the fuck off on them, but me...no. I just avoid the situation and let anger build up inside of me. I'm so irritated with people right now. One of my longest friendships ended a couple months ago. I didn't deserve to be put through the bullshit she put me through, so I gave up and obviously she didn't care. And recently, another one of my closest friends completely screwed me over. It's getting really, really old and I can honestly say that I've only had one true friend my entire life and surprise! Me & her are still best friends, which I am so thankful for. She means the world to me. But, I need to start looking out for myself, do things to make ME happy, and I need to stop trusting others so easily. Then, hopefully, I'll know what it's like to have good friends.