weird weird day!
ok so I told brandon daniels that I didn't want to be with him and that I am choosing to start to more or less try and work things out with me and Derek. Now wether or not he wants to is another story, and if he doesn't then that's just as fine. I have come to the point in my life that guys only fuck you over, so no matter who you "give your heart to" its gonna get shit on! Eh, that's life for you. So yea I kinda do want things to go good for me with Derek if we do go out again...I want him to show me that he won't hurt me again..doubt it but I want to see!
So yea I fucking asked Joe to drive me to my mom's bf's(marks) house today after school. He says yes and then no, so i figured he was joking with the no part so I got in the car. He fucking takes me to Heather's house with Danielle and Sam. I'm like shit wtf do I do now?! So as soon as I get to Heather's I call Jayson as a back up ride, and then I get to marks house and then my mom calls and bitches at me and so now I am grounded and it totaly blows balls because Alkaline Trio is supposed to play at Roller Rink on Friday. And then on Saturday there is supposed to be a show at John's house in the basement, but if I am fucking grounded then I can't go to either of these...So this blows my fucking weekend! and I want Derek to talk to me more about us please please please!! well later, Carlie ;)