WOOT WOOT! ha ha!
wow! why does today have to be good and confusing all in one?...ah fuck it! Ok so me and Brandon(daniels) have been writing each other back and forth now for the past week or so and I mean I still haven't gotten to know him enough to concider going out, because the notes are just pretty much blabbing on about things that aren't so important. Until today that is. He writes me the first note today, it says something along these lines, "So umm...I was wondering if you want to hook up but you don't have to answer if you don't want to yet, but yea were gonna have to hang out soon and smoke together." (that was the important part, thats not all it said) and so I wrote back with something like,"ok I need some more time though, not sure on some things right now, besides I already told you I had my eye on another guy." Then he writes me back again with something sorta like,"I want a hug at the end of the day, maybe a kiss if I can even get one;). My friend thinks I am a pussy when it comes to dealing with girls and so at the end of the day I am gonna ask you out." I didn't write back, because I really didn't want to reject him, but I also didn't want to say "yes". UGH whatever... I'm not sure who I want, but I want to be with Derek more, I know more about Derek and I dunno, today when I was getting in Amy's car, I said Derek and I was like "hey fucker" kiddingly and he saw me smile and then I THINK he was joking when he said back, "fuck you bitch". ugh, I take shit to weird with him since we broke up, I can no longer tell when he is joking and when he's not...that's something I hope to work on, with myself or with him.
On another note...my mom is going out of town, or state for Wednesday and Thursday...but she doesn't trust me to stay home so she is fucking making me stay at her bf's house but I am not going to be there. I am going to find someone who will let me chill with them all day, or at least somewhere to hang til ten at night when I gotta bounce back to Mark's house. LAME! why do moms know how to suck, and dads to be totally awesome,or at least the favorite one for many? whatever! only around another year and a month til I get to see my dad again legally! kinda having mixed feelings about that for some reason.
So how come when something happens in your day, there is things like the television or the radio or the music you happen to listen to, reflect on what IS going on in your day? I pointed that out to Danielle some time ago, and she pointed it back out to me the other day while we were at her house and we were talking about her project ROMEO AND JULIET and then we were listening to a song and it said something about you and I am your Romeo... it was weird!
Well these posts just keep getting lamer and lamer.. my life is boring and pointless as it seems to me!
"I wanna kiss you every minute, every hour every day!" wether it be lyrics to a song or not it feels so true right now...scratch that it feels so right to do right now! So confusing or am I just doing the typical Carlie thing and over reacting/ thinking way too much about shit that could really not matter that much? later, Carlie :( (I need summer to come soo quick!)