Interesting things
I am struggling with so many new things that are all good things. I am just going to assume you understand and talk as if no one is listening.
1. I am afraid of being a burden on JHOP because I am young, I am needy, and I am crying a lot.
2. I am in a room of prayer for intercession and I am just reaching out to God and praying for myself. Yes, I am needing it but I don't want to disrupt what they are doing.
3. Last night I had to stay at the church because there are a lot of attacks over my head recently and my awareness of them is making it worse. (also there is some major stuff going on in David's head as well that is around me)
4. Am I supposed to go to JHOP DC? Is that where I fit? is that for me or am I different.
5. Um, how am I supposed to be around David? AM I supposed to be around David? HOW CAN I HELP HIM?
6. Where am I supposed to be!? what do I do?!do i finish the year?! WHY DO THEY HAVE TO LEAVE!?
Yeah, thats what is going on in my stress life. Which is not a very fun life. I know that if I was dependant on God and if I was strong in Him that I could be strong in my choices. I know that if I was close to Him then I would be ok with whatever happened and where ever I went. And if I listened to Him then I would know how to be. But I am just a whiney baby. And I am scared and crying out and crying out and crying out.
ooohhh and I am tired from last nights late night prayer and crying and crying over David... praying that God would meet his eyes!!!
1. I am afraid of being a burden on JHOP because I am young, I am needy, and I am crying a lot.
2. I am in a room of prayer for intercession and I am just reaching out to God and praying for myself. Yes, I am needing it but I don't want to disrupt what they are doing.
3. Last night I had to stay at the church because there are a lot of attacks over my head recently and my awareness of them is making it worse. (also there is some major stuff going on in David's head as well that is around me)
4. Am I supposed to go to JHOP DC? Is that where I fit? is that for me or am I different.
5. Um, how am I supposed to be around David? AM I supposed to be around David? HOW CAN I HELP HIM?
6. Where am I supposed to be!? what do I do?!do i finish the year?! WHY DO THEY HAVE TO LEAVE!?
Yeah, thats what is going on in my stress life. Which is not a very fun life. I know that if I was dependant on God and if I was strong in Him that I could be strong in my choices. I know that if I was close to Him then I would be ok with whatever happened and where ever I went. And if I listened to Him then I would know how to be. But I am just a whiney baby. And I am scared and crying out and crying out and crying out.
ooohhh and I am tired from last nights late night prayer and crying and crying over David... praying that God would meet his eyes!!!