being sad isn't fun
ok, it's been five years and i still cry like a baby when i think about that week. on the 13th, in learning center, erik and cody were doin there math homework and i was helping someone else in their grade do their's. cody was using my calculator and had finally figured out how to type on it. him and erik were teasing me for liking math so much. then we were all just talking for a while. i remember talking to cody about emjay way (beth, his girlfriend also lived there close to where i live). i told him that i see him all the time driving on the road (most people are afraid of emjay way i've been told,... something about army guys and guns... ) "yeah, i know that road so well i could drive around it with me eyes close"... something about this sentence always cracks me and i cry so hard, the way i am now. some people got mad at me that saturday, and didn't understand why i went to the funeral. i hadn't known cody that long, but even on the first day of class with him he was so nice, and we were friends. The next day i heard about the accident, but everyone was saying he'd be fine. but then second block kace told me he had died. the rest of the day was a blur... honestly. math, french and chem, that's all i had to make it through... i really just remember crying. I remember cody talking about getting beth roses for their 9 month (they started dating on valentine's day). they were delivered on time to the school. beth wasn't in school the rest of the week. i didn't see her freak out, but carthage isn't that big, so i heard about it within a block. the news ran a story on it, principle turner talked about it, and pictures of the car were in the paper. it was unescapable. the funeral was packed. cody was seriously THE nicest guy, and everyone loved him. it was the most eye-opening thing that had ever happened to me, to any of us. cody had died at 16 driving to school, and there was nothing we could do to change that. no make ups, no redos. nothing
i knew what death was, but aside from my great grandma lena, i'd never known anyone who died. like i said i had math that day. I do remember opening my calculator in class and turning it on. on the face it read "CODY SAYS HI"
RIP CJC. i'll miss you and your yellow shoes.
i knew what death was, but aside from my great grandma lena, i'd never known anyone who died. like i said i had math that day. I do remember opening my calculator in class and turning it on. on the face it read "CODY SAYS HI"
RIP CJC. i'll miss you and your yellow shoes.