✦ IC; MISTLETOE

[comesfirst]

[shameless post of shameless continuation (from here)! ETA okay trigger warnings are now needed. CONSIDER YOURSELVES ALERTED]

Did you really think I'd want to touch you like that?

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[masterbaited]

[now you're just being cruel]

Obviously you did.

[comesfirst]

I said it wasn't like that.

[masterbaited]

[reaches up to touch his cheek]

Not even when I called your name?

[comesfirst]

[--and for just a moment, he hesitates]

[masterbaited]

[stops breathing as he waits]

[comesfirst]

That's got nothing to do with this.

[masterbaited]

What does that have to do with, then?

[comesfirst]

Does it matter? The point is I don't want to be here!

[masterbaited]

[lets go]

[comesfirst]

[pushes himself away from the bed and stands, tight-wound, closed-off, and defensive]

[masterbaited]

[slowly gets up and starts for the door]

[comesfirst]

Naoe--!

[comesfirst]

. . . why leave?

[masterbaited]

[stops in front of the door, keeping his back to Takaya]

Do you want me to stay?

[comesfirst]

[doesn't take a step towards him]

That never mattered before. What I want doesn't compare to what you want, right? I can't understand your feelings, right? You want to use me, so what does it matter if I'm willing? Why--

--why did you tell me this wasn't real? You could have let me make an idiot of myself chasing your damn tail. Isn't that what you want? Wouldn't that just make it better for you? All of a sudden you're acting like you want me to invite you in. Why the hell do you care?!

[masterbaited]

[his voice is so very cold]

That's true. It would be better for me to just take what I want because you've shown me what happens otherwise. I should have kept my mouth shut. Then I could have seen you dance like a fool. But I didn't and you shoved that in my face. For one moment-just one brief moment, I thought you might have given a damn.

Now I know better.