Why Can't I Pick Just One?
A local store is closing and has all of their stock on clearance. 75% off? That sounds like a sale meant for me! But it also meant that anything I bought I couldn't return.
But I can't seem to choose what I want to buy if there are more than one of the item I'm interested in. For example, there was a shirt I liked and there were two of them on the rack. I picked up one and then wondered if the one I'd left on the rack was in some way, "better". My pulse started to race and I looked at the shirt in my hand. What if it had a hole somewhere that I didn't see? What if the size was labeled incorrectly? What if the one in my hand wasn't the one I needed to buy? The shirts looked the same, but were they really?
What should have been an easy choice turned into a huge big deal.
I took the second shirt off the rack and examined it closely. I couldn't see any difference between the two but I didn't want to risk making a poor choice.
What if I bought the shirt I originally picked up and got it home and found a flaw in it. That would make me careless and not paying attention. But what if the one I'd now put back on the rack was really the one that had a problem. Then I'd be a scrupulous shopper and would take even more pride in my purchase because I'd "caught the mistake" and avoided a pitfall.
But I couldn't see any difference in the shirts. They looked exactly the same. But what if there was something I was missing?
By this time I'd sent myself into a tailspin. The voices start. "Why can't you make up your mind? It's a shirt! This isn't rocket science. It's a shirt!Just pick one already!"
In the end, I couldn't make up my mind and put both shirts back on the rack. I'd freaked myself out so bad about making a "wrong choice" that I froze and couldn't make any choice.
I feel like a freak. Why can't I make a decision in situations like this? Why does everything feel like a life or death situation with me? Not everything is a big deal, but it feels like it is!
Why can't I be a normal person? Find something I like, try it on and buy it. That's it. No drama. No over-analyzing. No "what if" scenarios.
Not everything is like this. Sometimes I can go into a store and it's not a problem.
But more often than not, I just look. It's not about the money. It's me. I can't seem to make a decision without considering and then re-considering my purchase.
Today, I feel like maybe I haven't come as far as I'd like to think I have. I thought I was past some of these weird hangups.
But I can't seem to choose what I want to buy if there are more than one of the item I'm interested in. For example, there was a shirt I liked and there were two of them on the rack. I picked up one and then wondered if the one I'd left on the rack was in some way, "better". My pulse started to race and I looked at the shirt in my hand. What if it had a hole somewhere that I didn't see? What if the size was labeled incorrectly? What if the one in my hand wasn't the one I needed to buy? The shirts looked the same, but were they really?
What should have been an easy choice turned into a huge big deal.
I took the second shirt off the rack and examined it closely. I couldn't see any difference between the two but I didn't want to risk making a poor choice.
What if I bought the shirt I originally picked up and got it home and found a flaw in it. That would make me careless and not paying attention. But what if the one I'd now put back on the rack was really the one that had a problem. Then I'd be a scrupulous shopper and would take even more pride in my purchase because I'd "caught the mistake" and avoided a pitfall.
But I couldn't see any difference in the shirts. They looked exactly the same. But what if there was something I was missing?
By this time I'd sent myself into a tailspin. The voices start. "Why can't you make up your mind? It's a shirt! This isn't rocket science. It's a shirt!Just pick one already!"
In the end, I couldn't make up my mind and put both shirts back on the rack. I'd freaked myself out so bad about making a "wrong choice" that I froze and couldn't make any choice.
I feel like a freak. Why can't I make a decision in situations like this? Why does everything feel like a life or death situation with me? Not everything is a big deal, but it feels like it is!
Why can't I be a normal person? Find something I like, try it on and buy it. That's it. No drama. No over-analyzing. No "what if" scenarios.
Not everything is like this. Sometimes I can go into a store and it's not a problem.
But more often than not, I just look. It's not about the money. It's me. I can't seem to make a decision without considering and then re-considering my purchase.
Today, I feel like maybe I haven't come as far as I'd like to think I have. I thought I was past some of these weird hangups.