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I just want to write down this thought that keeps dwelling in my head before i forget. Though, i will probally not look back at this entry anytime soon. Anyways, i'm always confused why people tell me it'S bad to dwell about the past. I still don't understand and i don't think i ever will. I don't understand a lot that people tell me. I don't understand why I am any bit involved in a situation that has nothing to do with me, but my past seems to have a reason why i am. I can't predict that what i am doing in the present time will affect me later. Its like playing with a wild baby animal, you think you are not doing any harm, but by petting them you are causing it more harm then good. The same with people, the more you interact with people the more you affect them in life, good or bad.
My friend had a baby... and the relation is completly out of wack. He was my really good friend and at one time I did like him. His girl friend?? never liked me and we havn't talked much since then. We see eachother there and there. Everyone claimed the girl was mad and she would always send crazy messages to me without his notice because she thought i was trying to take him away from her or something. Even though he broke up with her and I don't like him. I'm still not sure why because we don't talk much anymore. They get back together and break up often. Yet, my past of being friend with him still affects us now. They set the baby off for adoption. Today she gave me a message to go to there baby shower because they are having a girl. I'm really confused. I havn't seen him or her in a long time. I'm not sure if i should go or stay out of the drama. Though i don't think i am drama. I don't know. He is my friend even though we barely talk. Which reminds me, I though he was dead or something. I guess its good to know he isn't. Though she has played tricks on me for no reason so i don't know if she is serious or not. The last time we really hanged out as friends was at dino's house two years ago. or about two years. hmm... i really care about him, i hope he is okay!
wow, if this doesn't make sense... it wasn't for anyone to read, but me anyways. I just got off work and i'm really tired, phew!
My friend had a baby... and the relation is completly out of wack. He was my really good friend and at one time I did like him. His girl friend?? never liked me and we havn't talked much since then. We see eachother there and there. Everyone claimed the girl was mad and she would always send crazy messages to me without his notice because she thought i was trying to take him away from her or something. Even though he broke up with her and I don't like him. I'm still not sure why because we don't talk much anymore. They get back together and break up often. Yet, my past of being friend with him still affects us now. They set the baby off for adoption. Today she gave me a message to go to there baby shower because they are having a girl. I'm really confused. I havn't seen him or her in a long time. I'm not sure if i should go or stay out of the drama. Though i don't think i am drama. I don't know. He is my friend even though we barely talk. Which reminds me, I though he was dead or something. I guess its good to know he isn't. Though she has played tricks on me for no reason so i don't know if she is serious or not. The last time we really hanged out as friends was at dino's house two years ago. or about two years. hmm... i really care about him, i hope he is okay!
wow, if this doesn't make sense... it wasn't for anyone to read, but me anyways. I just got off work and i'm really tired, phew!