i felt you slip away
i'm really having trouble grasping what it is i've done this time. i guess i'll see when i get home. i'm in ISS right now (go figure). hopefully i just get my check and leave and go blow all my money on something that will fuck me up. i hope i see this someone on my way out of here. 19 more minutes. so i've also finally come to grasps with my inner artist and i like to draw as often as i can come up with things to draw. too bad that 's not too often but hey if you want me to draw a picture of you then i just might do it if i feel like it. it'd be awfully neat to have a digital camera just to trake pictures of my friends so i could draw them and give them nice little pictures of themselves. just wait kids pretty soon you'll see i'll be all back into this internet thing and then i'll be doing that and i can post new drawings on my journal all the time. holy shit it just took me only 2 minutes to type all that. that really sucks. so i've been hanging out with matthew and anthony a lot lately. it's been fun. i had a chance to go get my amp fixed on tuesday when i had OSS but i missed because i'm a dumbass and i got in trouble for not going. i guess as long as i get fucked up this weekend it wont matter there's always acoustic guitar. but oh qwait i bropke my goddamn string . alright there goes another 2 minutes. and anthony yeah well i think me and anthony have a lot more in common than anybody really knows. maybe i'll be able to trust him with something like that. well so i finally made ammends with brandon p yesterday and well, it felt damn good actually; damn good. i mean it's not even like i have to start hanging out with him all the time now. it's just nice to know i'm not against someone anymore. hopefully i can get at this level with austin. i guess i just was never cut out for hating people. i thought i was for a while there but you know i dont even hate stephanie like i'm sure she thinks i do and i dont even hardly hate erika or chelsey nowadays. maybe i kinda hate chelsey still but that's just because me and rob are such good friends. me and rob are best friends and i hope we know eachother for the rest of our lives. alright so i'm sure this was one of the longest and most pointless entries ever, i know it's pretty bad for me but i also know that all my thoughts are doomed to be pretty bottled up from now on i think. i wish i could go into some detail with someone about how i actually feel about everything. but i also think that maybe that's not such a good idea. but then again it might help me to be a whole hell of a lot less miserable. speaking of being a lot less miserable i've only got about 10 minutes left in here. good thing there's no school tommorow. good thing i'm probably dead when i get home anyways. oh well. i can only hope i'll be incoherent by the end of the night. that's all that i've got going for me for now, that and i really cant wait to see sin city on the 1st when it comes out. i'll be makin a huge deal out of it of course and hopefully i'll make a date out of it. love brandon