hey bro
suddenly i miss korkor. the times we always spent together going out, swimming, shopping, eating. whenever we have a family gathering, he will always be the quiet and reserved one. i'll always sit next to him, talk to him and everything else. my aunt will always ask me to go call him, go talk to him. we'll always share room for family trips or chalets. it feels nice to have a big brother like him.
we used to go swimming after his work at Apple or on sundays. we'll ask each other out on random days to go shopping, talk a walk in town, eat. haha, he always eat so much, my leftovers are well taken care of. we have quite different taste for clothings and trends. but he never fails to advise me.
the moment spent in the hospital keeps ringing in my head. the sight of him holding ahma's hand softly, sitting solemnly at the lobby keeps coming up. i can feel his helplessness. i miss him so much. i want to hug him, but we dont practise hugging with each other. it will probably shock him. haha. just before we sent ahma off to the crematory, he pushed my hands away and dashed towards ahma to see her for the last time. i have never seen him so emotional before. he has never dropped a single tear until that day.
i hope he is doing fine in tekong ar. i know going bald might be one of his greatest concern. lol, he has always been particular about his appearance. i wished i had the kind of attitude he possess. he used to be sort of a nerdy boy, but he changed his image after poly life started. i want to be wearing contacts like he did. haha, korkor has always been the best man i'll speak of, although some part of him pisses me off sometimes. haha.