long needed break
so it is official... i am officially withdrawn and am taking the session off. my personal life was effecting school work so much that i finally decided to take a break from school, also for my mental well being, too much stress lately. i am having mixed feelings about it, i feel like a failure for not finishing without a break, but at the same time i feel so much better. i was to the point of just breaking down and crying for no reason. i was sitting eating lunch at the natural cafe the other day with frankie and kelani and out of no where i just started bawling. so i have no more school to stress me out so i am going to better my relationship with kelani, and get this dam dump cleaned up!! i am kind of worried about money since i wont be getting a check from the school, but my parents said they would help, i feel bad for having to ask... oh and no new computer for me... i was going to get one for my birthday from my parents and i have been saving up for it but since they have to help me with rent... no comp. kinda REALLY sucks since this one is going to blow up in my face one of these days i swear.
kelani and i had one of our talks where we just say everything that is buging us at the time last night. it was good, i guess i am stuck in the honeymoon stage and it bugs her. oh and frankie needs to stop sleeping, yea she works but that is only 6 hours maybe since she sleeps all night she could get up and clean. i know i lag on cleaning too, but now that i have so much time i sure as hell am not going to spend it sleeping away life.
so my goals for my break are,
1. get a psycologist
2. clean, clean CLEAN oh and clean
3. get on a workout routine starting with nightly walks
4. find a job... maybe the animal shelter
5. unpack my last 3 boxes and get my life organized
6. do some more painting
hmm looking at the list i see a pattern, stuff to keep me busy and all to better my sanity.
oh and its to dang hot in this casa!!!!
so lets see what 11 weeks will bring me, maybe my sanity back.
kelani and i had one of our talks where we just say everything that is buging us at the time last night. it was good, i guess i am stuck in the honeymoon stage and it bugs her. oh and frankie needs to stop sleeping, yea she works but that is only 6 hours maybe since she sleeps all night she could get up and clean. i know i lag on cleaning too, but now that i have so much time i sure as hell am not going to spend it sleeping away life.
so my goals for my break are,
1. get a psycologist
2. clean, clean CLEAN oh and clean
3. get on a workout routine starting with nightly walks
4. find a job... maybe the animal shelter
5. unpack my last 3 boxes and get my life organized
6. do some more painting
hmm looking at the list i see a pattern, stuff to keep me busy and all to better my sanity.
oh and its to dang hot in this casa!!!!
so lets see what 11 weeks will bring me, maybe my sanity back.