i hate wishing.
I hate that I have unrealistic expectations about the world. What tends to hurt more, though, are my unrealistic expectations of people. I seem to expect the same, if not more, out of people as I do myself. And, I'm betting that I expect more from other people. Specifically, those people that I have grown to trust or that I want to put all of my trust into. Maybe this is why I have slim to no confidence in others, in their abilities, in their ability to be a friend, and a good one. In anything that is controlled by something or some one other than myself. Maybe that's why I have defense mechanisms to begin with. Because people suck, and always will suck, and I don't want to be bothered getting involved with sucky people. Is that bad? Sad? Wrong? A horrible outlook to the world? Sometimes I wish I could just disappear for certain periods of time and then reappear completely new and refreshed. And sometimes.. well....