pain.
It actually feels like my heart is breaking. I am so used to being the one calling all the shots and now he's done it to me. He said he would always be there for me and that the best feeling in the world for him was seeing me happy or with a smile on my face, i am not smiling now. In fact i find myself constantly fighting back the tears. I just wish i could understand how i feel, i go from thinking i'll be ok and feeling numb to feeling like the whole world is crashing on my head...i feel like nothing could make it any better.
I can't call him, i don't think i could speak to him, i don't think i could retain my dignity, i want him back, but everyone keeps telling me that i am better off without him but they don't understand how i feel. They don't know. I am hurting so bad and i don't know what to do...
I can't call him, i don't think i could speak to him, i don't think i could retain my dignity, i want him back, but everyone keeps telling me that i am better off without him but they don't understand how i feel. They don't know. I am hurting so bad and i don't know what to do...