May 31, 2004 18:47
don't ask about the song, i don't know. and the title too, i'm not even that mad about him. it was just the lyric at the time that i needed a title. thats usually how i choose them.
too bad he didn't stay at home and wait for me like he said he was going to. i would have felt bad, cause i know he would have been mad. but at the same time, i wish he had done it because i would have felt so special and like maybe he wanted to hang out with me.
he never wants to hang out with me.
i have to force him most of the time, and that just makes me feel worse about hanging out with him. i don't want to be big bad me, i just want to spend time with him and i wish he felt the same way. what i want to say to him: "since you came back from your stupid trip you only want to hang out with the people that you went with, and your boys. when is it my turn!?!?!?"
i feel a little better, even though that won't ever get to you.
whatever.