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[combat_baby_]

Here you are with your
happiness unravelling and your
need to be loved talking you into
bad choices and thoughtless
decisions made in seconds.

You don a facade so invisible
it's a wonder no one asks
and no one notices
and maybe you are invisible after all
except in the light of the stars
where you stand with a boy's arms
around your waist and he doesn't
even know your name.

But he learns it with a smile
and tells you to take care
before speeding into the night, leaving you to wonder
if what just happened
really happened at all.

Someday when this is over and you're full again
of something good instead of something painful
you'll half-remember him and the way he
made you look at him
with a smile.

Or maybe the pain won't leave
at all and you'll have to think about it
every single day
and wonder silently what it means
if it means anything at all
and do you really want it to,
anyways?