I will touch the sun or I will die trying

[coma_white__]

i sit here clutching useless lists
and keys to doors that don't exist
i crack my teeth on pearls
i tear into the history
just show me what it means to me in this world
yeah, in this world

'cause i am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes
'till i understand or go blind

i see the parts but not the whole
i study saints and scholars both
no perfect plan unfurls
do i trust my heart or just my mind
why is truth so hard to find in this world
yeah, in this world

'cause i am due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes
'till i understand or go blind

i know that there's a point i've missed
a shrine or stone i haven't kissed
a scar that never graced my wrist
a mirror that hasn't met my fist
but i can't help feeling that i'm

due for a miracle
i'm waiting for a sign
i'll stare straight into the sun
and i won't close my eyes

what have i to show except the promises i never kept?
i lie here shaking on this bed, under the weight of my regrets
i hope that i will never let you down