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Ironic isn’t it, that the outcome of this situation is me having to go see a counsellor?
What situation? The Kelly one.
Yes, I’m still pretty much her carer. It’s pathetic. I can’t stand it. But it’s out of my control. If her parents won’t take care of her what else am I meant to do?
It’s at the stage now where I can’t stand to be in the same room as her, let alone spend any time with her. She’s just such hard work. Recently, she’s just been sleeping. All the time. Even in public places. She’s falling asleep at university and security has to come wake her up. It’s serious.
I made her an appointment for the doctors early one morning. Of course, I had to take her. Otherwise she just wouldn’t go. On the way I asked her if she knew why she was going and she replied “no”. When she was in with the doctor she said nothing of what was really wrong with her. She even ‘forgot’ she spent the night in hospital in December (real fucking kick in the teeth for me who sat by her side all the time).
She even admitted recently that there’s something wrong with the processes of her brain functioning. Like, lets make this easier, if I said tree to her she could see the word in her head but not connect it with an image. She wouldn’t know what a tree is. That in itself is something serious. Add to that the fact that her memory is going… I mean, I can say something to her and 2minutes later ask her what I said and she wouldn’t know. And I mean all the time like this. It’s not that she’s just not listening to me.
I’m really pissed off at her just now. And I know it sounds horrid seeing as she’s ill but I’m the one dealing with it, she’s not even recognising that there is something wrong with her and my grades are suffering. For her, this is just a period in her life. For me, my grades are my future. One mark could bring my degree classification down, for her; probably one pill could make it better.
We had work to do with her for a module before Christmas of course, she did nothing and because she had that ‘episode’ when members of staff were present we managed to get an extension until the 12th Jan. Come the 11th Jan, she still hadn’t done her part of the work. This time however she listened when I had a go at her and sent her out to the library to do it. Of course, because of this our work got handed in late and therefore might not even be marked properly, we might just receive the bare minimum of 40marks.
You might ask why we couldn’t just do it between ourselves and leave her to it, or why we waited so long for her and didn’t just do her part as well. The answer is we couldn’t. We had signed up to do the work as a group. And I mean signed, little form and everything. I didn’t know she hadn’t done any of her part until it was too late. I’d been telling her since October.
Anyway, a couple days later I was still fuming. I eventually snapped and really had a go at her, told her what I think. But she just switched off, completely. It was like a little trigger in her brain had flipped off. It just wasn’t worth it.
It just isn’t worth it.
What situation? The Kelly one.
Yes, I’m still pretty much her carer. It’s pathetic. I can’t stand it. But it’s out of my control. If her parents won’t take care of her what else am I meant to do?
It’s at the stage now where I can’t stand to be in the same room as her, let alone spend any time with her. She’s just such hard work. Recently, she’s just been sleeping. All the time. Even in public places. She’s falling asleep at university and security has to come wake her up. It’s serious.
I made her an appointment for the doctors early one morning. Of course, I had to take her. Otherwise she just wouldn’t go. On the way I asked her if she knew why she was going and she replied “no”. When she was in with the doctor she said nothing of what was really wrong with her. She even ‘forgot’ she spent the night in hospital in December (real fucking kick in the teeth for me who sat by her side all the time).
She even admitted recently that there’s something wrong with the processes of her brain functioning. Like, lets make this easier, if I said tree to her she could see the word in her head but not connect it with an image. She wouldn’t know what a tree is. That in itself is something serious. Add to that the fact that her memory is going… I mean, I can say something to her and 2minutes later ask her what I said and she wouldn’t know. And I mean all the time like this. It’s not that she’s just not listening to me.
I’m really pissed off at her just now. And I know it sounds horrid seeing as she’s ill but I’m the one dealing with it, she’s not even recognising that there is something wrong with her and my grades are suffering. For her, this is just a period in her life. For me, my grades are my future. One mark could bring my degree classification down, for her; probably one pill could make it better.
We had work to do with her for a module before Christmas of course, she did nothing and because she had that ‘episode’ when members of staff were present we managed to get an extension until the 12th Jan. Come the 11th Jan, she still hadn’t done her part of the work. This time however she listened when I had a go at her and sent her out to the library to do it. Of course, because of this our work got handed in late and therefore might not even be marked properly, we might just receive the bare minimum of 40marks.
You might ask why we couldn’t just do it between ourselves and leave her to it, or why we waited so long for her and didn’t just do her part as well. The answer is we couldn’t. We had signed up to do the work as a group. And I mean signed, little form and everything. I didn’t know she hadn’t done any of her part until it was too late. I’d been telling her since October.
Anyway, a couple days later I was still fuming. I eventually snapped and really had a go at her, told her what I think. But she just switched off, completely. It was like a little trigger in her brain had flipped off. It just wasn’t worth it.
It just isn’t worth it.