Back when I don't want to ever be back.
So, I am back from Little Rock. I did not sleep until 6 am to turn around and get about about 8:30 am and go all day and still going to not be tired. Should have just said fuck it and took thursday and friday off. 22 on friday and cause of recent events this week has gone to shit as of like 10 pm on tuesday.
AT THIS MOMENT I WOULD LIKE TO EXPLAIN.....
So I was in Wal-Mart picking up shit to head back to the hotel. My phone rings and it is Zack, now I am partially thinking he forgot I was in LR. He starts by asking me if I knew Jake West, I knew him on a name basis, as he did I. I did not know him on a real personal level but heard LOTS about him. So, this was one of those names I reconize and place a face with who I have not ever really been around a lot. I was informed that he died that night in result of a car accident that he was involved in eariler that day. Tragic as this is, but this news did not phase me like it has almost everyone. He was well known by a lot of people and all I ever heard were great things about him.
AT THIS POINT IN TIME THIS WILL RUN ITS COURSE OFF ONTO WHY I HATE THIS TOWN AND CANT WAIT TO LEAVE.
I'll have to admit after I was back into town and talking to several people. How bad it is to have someone that did what he loved to do so well and was loved by everyone that I have met that knew him. For some odd reason that simple fact has got me all mixed up. I am not much of a funeral(spelling) person and will prolly not goto the visitation or services. I have, however, decided that I will prolly pay my respects to him after he is laid to rest. From what I gather, the possiblity of a ton of people that are going to be there is mostly why I will not go. This is not to be mean, this is just who I am. I will pay my respects to him, because I respect him on a level with how he lived his life. How so many knew and loved him. This will never be forgotten. How he pursued(spelling)what he loved to do, as I gather, with such passion. We have been robbed, robbed of such a wonderful person in this world what few there are sometimes, that it has hit us all in one way or another. In my opinion he would want us to carry on, not to be griving but to cherish the memories and good times and to remember him in the way he lived and changed us all. This is how I feel and I only speak for myself. Some can relate. Some will disagree.
There is prolly so much more to say that has escaped my mind. That will prolly not come to me till after this is posted.
(ok so I didnt go on a rant about this shit hole town that I wouldnt think twice about leaving. only thing that I would care about is my few close friends I would leave behind. the rest know i <3 them but are not as close as I am to thse few who i have been through so much with and have stuck with/by me through it all. shay, erin and her family, amanda even tho things are different are the ones I dont know if I could leave. zack, mandy, amber, alex, mark, amanda(different one), and serveral friends i have gained from knowing shay and from michelle when i dated her i would miss but things are so different it wouldnt be quite the same, but i still <3 you guys much, and would help you in a heart beat if situation permitted i could in all my power. everyone else, well i dont know. when that day comes it might be a really last minute thing and i might not have enough time to say goodbye, its kinda like me anyways to do that, no offense, its just my personality. i am just ready for this day to come. i dont like this town for what it has become to me.)
R.I.P. Jake and maybe someday we will all see you again.(depends on what you believe)
AT THIS MOMENT I WOULD LIKE TO EXPLAIN.....
So I was in Wal-Mart picking up shit to head back to the hotel. My phone rings and it is Zack, now I am partially thinking he forgot I was in LR. He starts by asking me if I knew Jake West, I knew him on a name basis, as he did I. I did not know him on a real personal level but heard LOTS about him. So, this was one of those names I reconize and place a face with who I have not ever really been around a lot. I was informed that he died that night in result of a car accident that he was involved in eariler that day. Tragic as this is, but this news did not phase me like it has almost everyone. He was well known by a lot of people and all I ever heard were great things about him.
AT THIS POINT IN TIME THIS WILL RUN ITS COURSE OFF ONTO WHY I HATE THIS TOWN AND CANT WAIT TO LEAVE.
I'll have to admit after I was back into town and talking to several people. How bad it is to have someone that did what he loved to do so well and was loved by everyone that I have met that knew him. For some odd reason that simple fact has got me all mixed up. I am not much of a funeral(spelling) person and will prolly not goto the visitation or services. I have, however, decided that I will prolly pay my respects to him after he is laid to rest. From what I gather, the possiblity of a ton of people that are going to be there is mostly why I will not go. This is not to be mean, this is just who I am. I will pay my respects to him, because I respect him on a level with how he lived his life. How so many knew and loved him. This will never be forgotten. How he pursued(spelling)what he loved to do, as I gather, with such passion. We have been robbed, robbed of such a wonderful person in this world what few there are sometimes, that it has hit us all in one way or another. In my opinion he would want us to carry on, not to be griving but to cherish the memories and good times and to remember him in the way he lived and changed us all. This is how I feel and I only speak for myself. Some can relate. Some will disagree.
There is prolly so much more to say that has escaped my mind. That will prolly not come to me till after this is posted.
(ok so I didnt go on a rant about this shit hole town that I wouldnt think twice about leaving. only thing that I would care about is my few close friends I would leave behind. the rest know i <3 them but are not as close as I am to thse few who i have been through so much with and have stuck with/by me through it all. shay, erin and her family, amanda even tho things are different are the ones I dont know if I could leave. zack, mandy, amber, alex, mark, amanda(different one), and serveral friends i have gained from knowing shay and from michelle when i dated her i would miss but things are so different it wouldnt be quite the same, but i still <3 you guys much, and would help you in a heart beat if situation permitted i could in all my power. everyone else, well i dont know. when that day comes it might be a really last minute thing and i might not have enough time to say goodbye, its kinda like me anyways to do that, no offense, its just my personality. i am just ready for this day to come. i dont like this town for what it has become to me.)
R.I.P. Jake and maybe someday we will all see you again.(depends on what you believe)