Fatty McButterpants
Med check at the dr's today. Usual long wait. Blood tests are weird. White count elevated again. Platelets too. Blood sugar and cholesterol ok. Triglycerides high. Blood pressure could be better.
Got the fat speech. Apparently, I've gained ten pounds since spring. Yeah. That's BAD. VERY BAD. Never fatter, and climbing. She looked at me, right in the eye, and said "you can do this. We have to make you believe you can do this". And that's the rub. Because if I believed I could do it, I would. I have no reference point for living life not huge.
However, as we keep to our budgeting, I think I might have some success by virtue of the fact that we aren't eating out as much, and I'm bringing my lunch instead of getting McCrap every day. And yes. the Y.
She also switched my crazy pills. Which makes me nervous. Because I may be feeling crappy, but it's still better than I used to feel. Not as good as good used to be, but not as bad as bad used to be, either. But we talked about it and I'm switching to Wellbutrin. We'll see how that works. She assured me I won't flip out and need to be placed in a locked ward.
Let's hope.
Money thing is interesting. We got paid today, so we were really able to do some actual work with the finances. I even learned how to make a spreadsheet do math! (Hey. That's a HUGE thing for me. HUGE) In looking at the numbers, we're good....with "extra" money that we could throw at the debt. But I don't trust it. I don't trust the budget! It's right there, all figured out, numbers run, everything accounted for down to the house cleaner and massages. And I don't trust it.
Always learning.
Got the fat speech. Apparently, I've gained ten pounds since spring. Yeah. That's BAD. VERY BAD. Never fatter, and climbing. She looked at me, right in the eye, and said "you can do this. We have to make you believe you can do this". And that's the rub. Because if I believed I could do it, I would. I have no reference point for living life not huge.
However, as we keep to our budgeting, I think I might have some success by virtue of the fact that we aren't eating out as much, and I'm bringing my lunch instead of getting McCrap every day. And yes. the Y.
She also switched my crazy pills. Which makes me nervous. Because I may be feeling crappy, but it's still better than I used to feel. Not as good as good used to be, but not as bad as bad used to be, either. But we talked about it and I'm switching to Wellbutrin. We'll see how that works. She assured me I won't flip out and need to be placed in a locked ward.
Let's hope.
Money thing is interesting. We got paid today, so we were really able to do some actual work with the finances. I even learned how to make a spreadsheet do math! (Hey. That's a HUGE thing for me. HUGE) In looking at the numbers, we're good....with "extra" money that we could throw at the debt. But I don't trust it. I don't trust the budget! It's right there, all figured out, numbers run, everything accounted for down to the house cleaner and massages. And I don't trust it.
Always learning.