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I posted almost the same thing in the USMC Girlfriends group... But I don't imagine any of my friends on here, save one, would read that. So here goes.
Okay, so Nigel is in San Diego for boot camp right now... And the first letter I got was the best thing I ever read... He was so sweet. It was really short, but I love it. I got 2 letters in the mail today... In one he told me he was sick with a fever and that he got in trouble for falling behind when they were doing PT... And that his punishment was being drilled even harder later on. And in the other he ended it by saying that somehow on the way to boot camp he died and now he's in hell... I keep telling myself that it's normal for him to feel like that, and that I just have to keep sending supportive, uplifting letters. But I felt like I was going to be sick after reading them. Just the whole tone of the letters. He's miserable. And there is nothing I can do about it... I've always been there for him... And in a way I have sheltered him a lot... ever since we first started dating and his best friend died at 16 I've kind of watched out for him too. I always softened a blow if I could, or took the brunt of something bad for him if at all possible. I just can't do anything for him now. And I'm afraid to email his DI to see if he's okay... I don't want him to get picked on because his girlfriend was worried about him. I just don't know what to do with myself. I just want to cry.
Okay, so Nigel is in San Diego for boot camp right now... And the first letter I got was the best thing I ever read... He was so sweet. It was really short, but I love it. I got 2 letters in the mail today... In one he told me he was sick with a fever and that he got in trouble for falling behind when they were doing PT... And that his punishment was being drilled even harder later on. And in the other he ended it by saying that somehow on the way to boot camp he died and now he's in hell... I keep telling myself that it's normal for him to feel like that, and that I just have to keep sending supportive, uplifting letters. But I felt like I was going to be sick after reading them. Just the whole tone of the letters. He's miserable. And there is nothing I can do about it... I've always been there for him... And in a way I have sheltered him a lot... ever since we first started dating and his best friend died at 16 I've kind of watched out for him too. I always softened a blow if I could, or took the brunt of something bad for him if at all possible. I just can't do anything for him now. And I'm afraid to email his DI to see if he's okay... I don't want him to get picked on because his girlfriend was worried about him. I just don't know what to do with myself. I just want to cry.