Quiet
I go really quiet when things are unsettled. [N.B I also go quiet online when things are busy and good in real life, so large gaps in posting are usually nothing to worry about!] I learnt from the debacle of my PGCE and got in contact with my supervisor here to talk about my worries, which are now sorting themselves out and I won't go into details online for obvious reasons. That's a great start to an update, isn't it? "Things are a bit meh, but I can't tell you why"! There are great things about volunteering too. Today there was cake!
Things I can talk about:
I adore Cambridge! The weather has been brilliant for the past few weeks and I've been into Cambridge loads to see A and J and reipan. J took me on a sightseeing bus ride around the city, which was awesome fun. She also introduced me to a group of friends known collectively as The Lesbians, as they are all at a women-only college. We went to Wagamamas and wandered around town, which was Good Times.
A had me for a weekend and we went for a walk, pub lunch, punting on the Cam and over to some friends' to see Doctor Who all in one day! On Sunday I went to Cambridge City Church and then back to A's house for a delicious barbeque and then to a Messy Church activity afternoon at the local church here in the village. They rang me on the Saturday to ask if I wanted to join in, it was so lovely to be included. The whole weekend was fantastic, just to be busy and having fun. Best moment: lying back against blankets in the punt and looking up at the clear blue evening sky while people chatted around me and the water went past just a few inches below the edge of the punt.
Matthew is coming up from Oxford-ish for a visit this Saturday. I am so pleased to be seeing him. I am massively homesick and to spend time with Matthew and J will hopefully be like being home. I'm seeing my Ian on Wednesday for the first time since I left Exeter and then the next day that I have off Isaac and Lyn are coming up to London for a day and I'm going down and there will be MANY HUGS. I've spoken to Ian every day and been online and on the phone to lots of people and it's made things so much better. Honestly, most of what's wrong is homesickness and worry that I'm doing things wrong. These thoughts are getting easier to move past as I settle in here and find my feet. It's not even been four weeks yet and I shouldn't expect to have it all sorted out, but this is me and so I have ridiculously high expectations.
I am fine, and confused, and sad, and loved, all at once.
Things I can talk about:
I adore Cambridge! The weather has been brilliant for the past few weeks and I've been into Cambridge loads to see A and J and reipan. J took me on a sightseeing bus ride around the city, which was awesome fun. She also introduced me to a group of friends known collectively as The Lesbians, as they are all at a women-only college. We went to Wagamamas and wandered around town, which was Good Times.
A had me for a weekend and we went for a walk, pub lunch, punting on the Cam and over to some friends' to see Doctor Who all in one day! On Sunday I went to Cambridge City Church and then back to A's house for a delicious barbeque and then to a Messy Church activity afternoon at the local church here in the village. They rang me on the Saturday to ask if I wanted to join in, it was so lovely to be included. The whole weekend was fantastic, just to be busy and having fun. Best moment: lying back against blankets in the punt and looking up at the clear blue evening sky while people chatted around me and the water went past just a few inches below the edge of the punt.
Matthew is coming up from Oxford-ish for a visit this Saturday. I am so pleased to be seeing him. I am massively homesick and to spend time with Matthew and J will hopefully be like being home. I'm seeing my Ian on Wednesday for the first time since I left Exeter and then the next day that I have off Isaac and Lyn are coming up to London for a day and I'm going down and there will be MANY HUGS. I've spoken to Ian every day and been online and on the phone to lots of people and it's made things so much better. Honestly, most of what's wrong is homesickness and worry that I'm doing things wrong. These thoughts are getting easier to move past as I settle in here and find my feet. It's not even been four weeks yet and I shouldn't expect to have it all sorted out, but this is me and so I have ridiculously high expectations.
I am fine, and confused, and sad, and loved, all at once.