Where I am
I'm having trouble writing this post, which I have been intending to write for weeks now, so it's going to be the usual stream of consciousness.
I've been listening to Avenue Q this morning, as I am back in the position of being an unemployed graduate, though not with a BA in English. (Close: Modern Languages!) The PGCE didn't work out, for reasons it's probably best I don't go into, or I'd feel like I had to make this a friends-locked post and I don't want to do that. It's nothing awful, I just wasn't suited to the course.
I feel relieved to have left, but also sad, especially as I'm not sure what to do now. I'm looking at volunteering with Community Service Volunteers, or getting a job in Exeter, or getting a job somewhere else. I'm in the fortunate position of staying with a friend in Exeter (thank you, fanged-geranium!) and therefore not having to move away from the south-west just yet.
I've been left feeling very run-down. I sleep a lot and get tired easily. I am looking after myself and will be going to the doctors soon, no worries about that, but it means that everything takes a while.
In the rest of my life, things are going well and I often count my blessings:
My family are well. Parents continuing to sing in multiple choirs, sister just got a secretarial job, aunt and uncle on trip around the world, other aunt and uncle happily pottering in retirement, Granny is happy and healthy and all the cousins are doing their own things.
My friends are amazing. I have had so many hugs since I came home, it's been great! Having people to meet gets me out of the house and out of my own head, and having so many people to talk to means I don't feel I'm dragging down any one person with my need to talk through all the leftover rubbish from the past few months.
My Ian. I've just looked back at previous posts and realised that I've not talked about ian-a-blakeman at all. We've been together since October, having been introduced in August by a mutual friend and falling head-over-heels in love. I could say all sorts of soppy things, but, oh, just look:
I will only share if you ask very nicely.
Things I am looking forward to:
Visiting Ian in Cheltenham this weekend. I'm going to meet lots of his friends and we're going to spend some quiet time together as tomorrow marks the thirteenth day in a row that he's been at at least one if not two jobs. Apparently I'm carrying him to the car, should be interesting!
IVFDF in Bristol next weekend! So many wonderful people and there will be brilliant music AND I'm sharing a hotel room with Joanna while her James goes off indoor camping with my Ian! This still makes me giggle. Ian's going to take his sketchbook and draw the musicians and dancers and get no sleep at all. Joanna and I are convinced he's going to have lots of girls mooning over him by the end of the first evening.
My parents are coming to visit in March. I'm homesick but too occupied to come home easily, so this makes me very happy too.
And there we go, an update of sorts! I'm still here, still reading my friends list, just a bit quiet. Hi, everyone *waves*
I've been listening to Avenue Q this morning, as I am back in the position of being an unemployed graduate, though not with a BA in English. (Close: Modern Languages!) The PGCE didn't work out, for reasons it's probably best I don't go into, or I'd feel like I had to make this a friends-locked post and I don't want to do that. It's nothing awful, I just wasn't suited to the course.
I feel relieved to have left, but also sad, especially as I'm not sure what to do now. I'm looking at volunteering with Community Service Volunteers, or getting a job in Exeter, or getting a job somewhere else. I'm in the fortunate position of staying with a friend in Exeter (thank you, fanged-geranium!) and therefore not having to move away from the south-west just yet.
I've been left feeling very run-down. I sleep a lot and get tired easily. I am looking after myself and will be going to the doctors soon, no worries about that, but it means that everything takes a while.
In the rest of my life, things are going well and I often count my blessings:
My family are well. Parents continuing to sing in multiple choirs, sister just got a secretarial job, aunt and uncle on trip around the world, other aunt and uncle happily pottering in retirement, Granny is happy and healthy and all the cousins are doing their own things.
My friends are amazing. I have had so many hugs since I came home, it's been great! Having people to meet gets me out of the house and out of my own head, and having so many people to talk to means I don't feel I'm dragging down any one person with my need to talk through all the leftover rubbish from the past few months.
My Ian. I've just looked back at previous posts and realised that I've not talked about ian-a-blakeman at all. We've been together since October, having been introduced in August by a mutual friend and falling head-over-heels in love. I could say all sorts of soppy things, but, oh, just look:
I will only share if you ask very nicely.
Things I am looking forward to:
Visiting Ian in Cheltenham this weekend. I'm going to meet lots of his friends and we're going to spend some quiet time together as tomorrow marks the thirteenth day in a row that he's been at at least one if not two jobs. Apparently I'm carrying him to the car, should be interesting!
IVFDF in Bristol next weekend! So many wonderful people and there will be brilliant music AND I'm sharing a hotel room with Joanna while her James goes off indoor camping with my Ian! This still makes me giggle. Ian's going to take his sketchbook and draw the musicians and dancers and get no sleep at all. Joanna and I are convinced he's going to have lots of girls mooning over him by the end of the first evening.
My parents are coming to visit in March. I'm homesick but too occupied to come home easily, so this makes me very happy too.
And there we go, an update of sorts! I'm still here, still reading my friends list, just a bit quiet. Hi, everyone *waves*