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shoot everwood is so deep. i'm procrastinating so bad right now cause i have an essay due tomorrow and i barely have anything written. i'm a little happy that nobody reads this anymore cause now i can let it allll out. and if you still do, wathever<3. but anyway, my whole life, or at least the past couple years i have made sure that i never get too attached to boys and stuff. all that girly lvely dovey stuff is definitely not me. but you know i think i'm getting those sapsap feelings for a certain boy. i've been trying realllly hard to just keep it platonic, but that hasn't been working out. mannnn. i really thought me and brendan would be like perfect soul mates, but im starting to question that now. sinc ehe left for school i don't see him that much, and when we hang out we just get drunkkkk and pass out. which is starting to get boring. i know i love him, but i am not in love with him. and im such a lsoer i write about this in my journal before actually talking to him about it. but i just needed to clear my mind and get all this off my chest. its been killllling me this whole week, weighing on my heart so heavily. but anyway, i guess we'll chat and we'll see where things go. i hate feeling like this. not my style at all.
peace.
peace.