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I try to wait a reasonable amount of time between entries in this thing so that perhaps I'll have something of interest to talk about. I won't go so far as to assume that anyone reads this anyway but still I'd like to keep it relatively interesting.
Not much goes on with me these days though, which makes my task all that much harder. I really have no internal conflicts anymore, because upon "figuring yourself out" you really learn how to react to most situations and to most people in a more appropriate way, causing WAY less drama and a less interesting life.
So here I am, without much to say.
Any sticky situations I may have complained about in the past I've managed to solve, I tend to get my way as selfish as that sounds. As selfsih as I KNOW that is, rather.
I will be attending the school I wanted to this upcoming year, despite all the hurtful and stupid things I did to a lot of people, derserving me a place in a nice boarding school far away from any of my friends, instead of at the school that I wanted to go to all along. I have the boy I wanted in the end, despite the terrible mess I made of people's feelings throughout the whole ordeal, despite the people that I hurt without shedding a tear, despite the people that jumped off bridges for me expecting me to catch them at the bottom (and I wasn't there). I have the friends that I wanted, and the clothes that I wanted, and the boy that I wanted and the school that I wanted and the drugs that I wanted and the crowd that I wanted and the reputation that I wanted and the piece of mind that I wanted.
I'm definitely one of those people that doesn't deserve how easily things work out for them.
I won't complain.
Not much goes on with me these days though, which makes my task all that much harder. I really have no internal conflicts anymore, because upon "figuring yourself out" you really learn how to react to most situations and to most people in a more appropriate way, causing WAY less drama and a less interesting life.
So here I am, without much to say.
Any sticky situations I may have complained about in the past I've managed to solve, I tend to get my way as selfish as that sounds. As selfsih as I KNOW that is, rather.
I will be attending the school I wanted to this upcoming year, despite all the hurtful and stupid things I did to a lot of people, derserving me a place in a nice boarding school far away from any of my friends, instead of at the school that I wanted to go to all along. I have the boy I wanted in the end, despite the terrible mess I made of people's feelings throughout the whole ordeal, despite the people that I hurt without shedding a tear, despite the people that jumped off bridges for me expecting me to catch them at the bottom (and I wasn't there). I have the friends that I wanted, and the clothes that I wanted, and the boy that I wanted and the school that I wanted and the drugs that I wanted and the crowd that I wanted and the reputation that I wanted and the piece of mind that I wanted.
I'm definitely one of those people that doesn't deserve how easily things work out for them.
I won't complain.