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Click to viewSometimes a little gathering once in awhile liven up the life.
Had a little BBQ session with the people of my secondary school life.
The great people that I get to know.
Will post the pictures up as soon as I get them.
Digressing from the fun in life, I think I have not been more truthful to myself in the past few years than these few days. I wonder if I have grown and pride no longer matters or have I learn to put it down and take it in stride. Friends threw me a few questions that stun me for moment. People whom know me knows that I don't show my inner feelings easily. I don't know. I really don't. Because when those words reach my mouth, it stuck.
Life would have been great if not for a little blunder on my part. And that little blunder lingers around. When I think back, it fills me with guilt and I don't know why. If things didn't turn out that way, how would it be? Or rather if it had been more clearcut and direct? Along the way there are some outrages incident that happened. Talks were all around. I didn't want to listen but eventually it is hard to avoid. Fingers were all pointing against you and I felt fucked up. Deep down I hope it wasn't you. When someone told me it wasn't you, a part of me believed it straight away. I rather believe it was someone else rather than you. But as always, sometimes the truth is never the truth and a lie is always a lie. My conscience is clear. If not for all of these, we might be crapping still. Up till now, your presence still send shivers down my spine. I couldn't be at where you are and not watch you. I'm strong on the surface but not all the way through. I have never been perfect but neither have you. Truth is, I have never been anywhere as cold as you.