Tell me you love me. But this time, only me. (Chapter 3)
Title : Tell me you love me. But this time, only me.
Pairing : Yoosu, Yunjae.
Sorry it took so long!! Not the last chappie yet. But I'll try!!!!!!! Thanks for reading. ^^
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-Goodnight. I love you, Jae. Even more this second. More and more each second... Even if you don't.-
Jae Joong looked at his phone screen, the time read 2.33am and the message was from Yunho. Straight after kneeling down in front of Yoochun, Yunho left the school. Didn't come back the whole day. Jae Joong locked himself in the guys bathroom while Yoochun was trying to get close to Junsu. Apparently, Changmin refused to let him see Junsu.
Jae Joong searched through his phone for a particular number and dialled.
'Hello?' A very sleepy voice picked up the phone.
'Junsu? Hey, sorry to bother you.'
'Oh, Jae hyung. No, it's okay. How may I help you?'
'Su... did you and Yoochun get back together?'
'What are you talking about hyung? Yoochun hasn't contacted me ever since Yunho hyung left...'
Jae Joong's eyebrows furrowed together, making his forehead crease.
'Su... wasn't he trying to talk to you?'
'Hyung... he gave up. His specific words were "Fine Junsu. I can see that no matter what I do, you don't seem to care for our relationship anymore." then he left. I think I heard Changmin saying something about what relationship, ours wasn't a relationship at all. That's all hyung.'
'You... you really don't care?' Jae Joong was shocked.
A sigh came from the other line, 'It's not that I don't care, hyung. But, he wants to give up. I tried calling him. I left around 20 missed calls and 40 messages on his phone... It just kills me how he can give up so quickly. But then I remind myself, he doesn't love me anyway, so it doesn't matter.'
'Su... that's not true. Chun loves you. He really does.'
'Let's just forget about mine and Yoochun's pathetic relationship. You called for something else, right?'
'Yeah, Su, I need to know about Yunho.'
A startled sound came from Junsu.
'Hyung, what do you want to know? I'm not that close to Yunho.'
'Pssshhh, don't lie. I know you and Yunho have been good friends. You were the one who introduced him to Yoochun.'
A small cough came from the other end, 'What do you want to know?'
'I need you to come to my house tomorrow morning. Bring Changmin along too, is that okay?'
'But hyung, school?'
'I think I need a break.'
'Okay hyung. We'll be there. But, hyung, take a deep breath and just stop thinking for tonight, okay?'
'Good night Su. I'll see you and Changmin tomorrow.' Jae Joong sighed and pressed the end call button after Junsu said goodbye.
Jae Joong sighed and leaned back in his bed. No way is he going to be able to sleep now... He wondered if Yunho was asleep or not.
-Yunnie, are you asleep?-
Hitting the send button before he had any chance to regret, Jae Joong flipped the phone close.
"Yunnie, please tell me you still love me after what I've done to you." Jae Joong sighed once more before his phone vibrated.
-No, why? Is there something wrong? Are you in trouble?-
Jae Joong smiled, his Yunnie was always so caring.
-Can we just... talk?-
The messages kept coming after that. It was different that night, Yunho always kept a distance with the choice of words, and that hurt Jae Joong.
-Yunnie, It's 6 in the morning. Aren't you going to get ready for school?-
Jae Joong was slightly worried. Sure, he was going to skip school, but Yunho should have had a full 8 hour sleep for school, and he felt bad.
-I'm not going to school. I'm following my parents to Jeju.-
Jae Joong was frantic.
-Why? When are you coming back? Why? Why are you leaving me?-
Jae Joong knew he was sending mixed signals to the boy, but he was worried.
-I'm not leaving permanently. Just for a day trip. I won't leave you. I will never leave you.-
A sudden pain filled Jae Joong's heart, the slight twist making it all the worse.
-You left me this afternoon. Yunnie... can't we talk about it?-
-What can we talk about, Jae?-
-Anything. Everything. Please, Yunnie. I want to talk. Face to face.-
Jae Joong closed his eyes and took in a deep breath. Maybe it's time to go to sleep. Maybe it's time to forget everything...yeah....forget everything...
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Yunho crept into the room and smiled at the sleeping figure.
"I'll go to the end of the world for you, Jae. I just wish you would love me, the way I love you." Yunho slowly dragged a chair to sit at Jae Joong's bedside. He sat down, his fingers going straight to play with Jae Joong's hair.
Jae Joong slowly cuddled into the pillow he was holding, a faint whisper coming out, "Yunnie."
Yunho chuckled, "Ever so beautiful, Jae. Ever so sweet."
Yunho smiled at his love, tilting his head to the side ever so slightly, "Why did we have to part?"
Jae Joong continued on, completely oblivious to the fact that there was a person in his room.
"Joongie, I'm going to Jeju, but I really don't know when I'll be back. Maybe tonight, maybe next week. But I'll try to get back as fast as I can. I want to keep looking at you, loving you from afar. Is that okay? Because if it's not....I really don't know how I'll live. So let me love you, okay? Just let me do it, from afar." Yunho whispered, getting up from the chair.
"Bye, Jae Joong. I'll be seeing you around." Yunho placed a soft kiss on Jae Joong's forehead before leaving the room, placing a small box on the table.
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Junsu sighed, after Jae Joong's call he had called Changmin to tell him to meet at his place before leaving. After that, he found that he couldn't sleep at all.
'Chunnie, are you sleeping now? Did you eat dinner properly?' Junsu found that no matter how much he thought of Yoochun, the man would just never return to him.
Junsu always thought of his boyfriend, but somehow, the feeling was never returned. Obviously he knew about Yoochun's love for his Jae hyung. But why was it, Yoochun never turned to look at him? Why was he never good enough for him?
"Chunnie ah.... I love you...." Junsu whispered before closing his eyes and tried to sleep again.
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"Guys, come in." Jae Joong held the door open for Junsu and Changmin.
"Doesn't your mum mind that you're skipping school?" Junsu voiced his thoughts.
Jae Joong shook his head, "I told her what happened and she was quite understanding about it, but she told me I was only allowed to skip for one day."
Jae Joong led the two to his room and jumped on his bed, telling them both to make themselves at home.
"So, you wanted to know about Yunho hyung?" Junsu rocked back and forth on the floor. Changmin furrowed his eyebrows but kept silent anyway.
Jae Joong nodded, "How was he... before he met me?"
Jae Joong was slightly afraid to ask that question. Everyone always smiled at him whenever he was with Yunho because he apparently changed him. Now, he wanted to know how.
"Yunho hyung? Well, I was only close with him before I met Changmin. We grew up together but when we started high school his parents suggested for him to join some clubs and fill all his time. Plus, we were taking completely different subjects. Then he met you, and we almost completely stopped hanging out together... that is.... until I became Yoochun's boyfriend..." Junsu shook his head after that, as if trying to stop himself from thinking.
"People keep talking about how I changed him and all that. What happened?"
"Ah, that...Yunho hyung.... he used to be quite fierce and cold. Everyone used to think that it was because of his parents, but Yunho hyung's parents are the nicest people on Earth. I used to think that it was because of all the martial arts training he got when he was young, he used to go home all beaten up until his dad would go and complain to the school. But hyung always told his dad that he was okay, that he will one day learn to grow stronger."
"Did you ever find out what had actually happened?" Jae Joong was so interested in learning about his boyfriends past that he didn't realise that Changmin had excused himself and left the room.
"Yeah, Yunho hyung was just a kid. He just.... he was cold because he was afraid. He was afraid that if he didn't grow strong enough he would never find his love and be happy for his parents. He thought that people who were cold were strong. His parents really just wanted him to be happy." Junsu smiled, remembering the memory of young Yunho.
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"What, you stalk him too?' Changmin smirked, walking up to the figure across the road from Jae Joong's house.
"I heard Junsu was here." Yoochun looked helplessly towards Changmin.
"Don't worry, Junsu won't hurt your precious angel. They're just talking about some things. What do you want Park Yoochun." Changmin looked fiercely at Yoochun.
"Junsu. I just want Junsu."
Changmin shook his head, "You can't have him. In my mind, you're just the bastard who fooled him, used him then threw him away. And somehow, Junsu doesn't seem to mind. He's just so fucking in love with you that he really doesn't care as long as he's by your side. He really doesn't care as long you he can love you. How much more do you think he can take? Why do you want him Yoochun? Because Jae Joong doesn't love you anymore? Is that it? You want to use him again?"
"No, no. I would never treat him the way I did again. I wouldn't. I promise." Yoochun didn't know why he had to explain his reasons to the boy, but as long as he could have Junsu, then it would be fine.
"What about what you said yesterday, Yoochun. You said Junsu doesn't seem to care for your relationship anymore. He even kept calling you over and over again. He text you many times. Why is it that you suddenly care now? Why is it you suddenly want him back when you were the one who threw him away? He's not a toy, Yoochun, he can't be thrown away then picked up again like nobody's business. He's a person, Yoochun, and he has feelings too. I don't want you to be that bastard, I really hoped you weren't. I prayed that you truly loved him, that you would protect him and care for him. But you didn't. What do you expect me to say to you when you say you want him back? Sure, why not? Then let him get hurt again? I'm sorry, Yoochun-sshi, but maybe you might want to think about it first."
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