stage in left
I've always been and actor but this play is getting old and I don't know how to end it.
I still don't feel comfortable talking to anyone. I tried but its just not time yet. Or it could be the right time, just that I haven't found someone to explain it all to. I don't even know how to explain it all.
My parents finally know that I have 2 tattoos. Its good to not have to hide it anymore.
Tonight has been very unnerving. Just a sequence of events that led to me coming back to this as my only outlet.
I'm not helping myself by making no effort to be in contact with people but then again no one else ever takes the initiative. I think that up until now if I hadn't always just tagged along with people or politely invited myself to go places I probably wouldn't have any friends. Or it could just be that because I pushed myself onto other people they felt it wasn't necessary to call me, just thinking that I would eventually show up anyway.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm almost at a complete loss as to where to go or do. I just want to leave everything behind except for the people who are willing to follow and just attach myself to another group of people.
Forget 'attach' I want to be invited into something new.
Something new.
I still don't feel comfortable talking to anyone. I tried but its just not time yet. Or it could be the right time, just that I haven't found someone to explain it all to. I don't even know how to explain it all.
My parents finally know that I have 2 tattoos. Its good to not have to hide it anymore.
Tonight has been very unnerving. Just a sequence of events that led to me coming back to this as my only outlet.
I'm not helping myself by making no effort to be in contact with people but then again no one else ever takes the initiative. I think that up until now if I hadn't always just tagged along with people or politely invited myself to go places I probably wouldn't have any friends. Or it could just be that because I pushed myself onto other people they felt it wasn't necessary to call me, just thinking that I would eventually show up anyway.
I don't know what to do anymore. I'm almost at a complete loss as to where to go or do. I just want to leave everything behind except for the people who are willing to follow and just attach myself to another group of people.
Forget 'attach' I want to be invited into something new.
Something new.