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Im just putting down some current thoughts to help clear my head.
So im gonna stop smoking cigarettes, or at least cut back a whole lot, its slowing me down.
Classes right now are a little tricky, with my current sculpture project going to turn out a disaster because im terrible working in 3d unless its abstract. Relief sculpture is bullshit when you do it the opposite way its meant to, building up from the base instead of carving out from the top. But the next project is gonna be even harder, a 3d bust sculpture. I hope that the professor knows that were not professional sculptors and that my works are gonna be shit unless its extremely simple.
So if anyone wants to be my model for the head sculpture, that would be cool.
I actually have to start setting aside time to fill my sketchbook and do work for my portfolio. Also i need to start reading my textbooks because in the next few weeks im going to start having tests in class for both art history and basic drawing.
Its funny that in drawing i have my own wall were the teacher puts up all my class projects. Its almost embarrassing.
I'm gonna put my painting 'Dunes at Dusk' into the artshow here at school to see how it stands up to a larger base of artists and works. I also need to make one more piece to enter and im not even sure what kind of work i want to do for it.
I also need/want to meet a lot more people out here at school. So far ive only realy been hanging out with the frisbee team and a small few other people. I want to broaden my options of what i have to do on any given night, because id like to start goin out for thirsty thursday, or just whenever i hear about something interesting to do.
Thats why im very dissapointed im my roomate situation. Ive got a video game freak who im embarassed to be seen with, and and adopted asian kid who already has an established friends base of local friends which is hard to get into.
When the time comes to become de-tripled i want to be the one that leaves, although im not the temp. Hopefully it will work out for me because i know the original temp doesnt want to leave the room, so ill take up the offer if i get the chance, otherwise if i cant leave im gonna make sure he goes.
Right now i feel as though something is entirely missing from my life. I cant quite pinpoint it as of now, but i know it has to do with my interactions with other people. I want better relationships. I dont know what to do. Im complicating things in my mind and i should realy just try talking with someone about it but it just is hard for me to do. I have very poor communication skills when it comes to personal issues. Especially in the relationship department. Ive already screwed up what is probably my best option ever, and im afraid to move one or try something else for fear of screwing it up even more or for repeating the same mistake twice.
Although i can learn from my mistakes, its hard to get past the communication aspect of the problem. The fact is that i just dont know what to do to prevent screwing up. I just dont know and i hate to admit it.
Bottom line i just hate being lost.
Thats it for now i guess.
I'll be home this weekend.
See you all then.
So im gonna stop smoking cigarettes, or at least cut back a whole lot, its slowing me down.
Classes right now are a little tricky, with my current sculpture project going to turn out a disaster because im terrible working in 3d unless its abstract. Relief sculpture is bullshit when you do it the opposite way its meant to, building up from the base instead of carving out from the top. But the next project is gonna be even harder, a 3d bust sculpture. I hope that the professor knows that were not professional sculptors and that my works are gonna be shit unless its extremely simple.
So if anyone wants to be my model for the head sculpture, that would be cool.
I actually have to start setting aside time to fill my sketchbook and do work for my portfolio. Also i need to start reading my textbooks because in the next few weeks im going to start having tests in class for both art history and basic drawing.
Its funny that in drawing i have my own wall were the teacher puts up all my class projects. Its almost embarrassing.
I'm gonna put my painting 'Dunes at Dusk' into the artshow here at school to see how it stands up to a larger base of artists and works. I also need to make one more piece to enter and im not even sure what kind of work i want to do for it.
I also need/want to meet a lot more people out here at school. So far ive only realy been hanging out with the frisbee team and a small few other people. I want to broaden my options of what i have to do on any given night, because id like to start goin out for thirsty thursday, or just whenever i hear about something interesting to do.
Thats why im very dissapointed im my roomate situation. Ive got a video game freak who im embarassed to be seen with, and and adopted asian kid who already has an established friends base of local friends which is hard to get into.
When the time comes to become de-tripled i want to be the one that leaves, although im not the temp. Hopefully it will work out for me because i know the original temp doesnt want to leave the room, so ill take up the offer if i get the chance, otherwise if i cant leave im gonna make sure he goes.
Right now i feel as though something is entirely missing from my life. I cant quite pinpoint it as of now, but i know it has to do with my interactions with other people. I want better relationships. I dont know what to do. Im complicating things in my mind and i should realy just try talking with someone about it but it just is hard for me to do. I have very poor communication skills when it comes to personal issues. Especially in the relationship department. Ive already screwed up what is probably my best option ever, and im afraid to move one or try something else for fear of screwing it up even more or for repeating the same mistake twice.
Although i can learn from my mistakes, its hard to get past the communication aspect of the problem. The fact is that i just dont know what to do to prevent screwing up. I just dont know and i hate to admit it.
Bottom line i just hate being lost.
Thats it for now i guess.
I'll be home this weekend.
See you all then.