it's about giving?

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today i was feeling unusually generous (i am kinda stingy) and decided i wanted to send an e-giftcard to this guy in bellingham who helped me out when i was living there and was terribly terribly depressed. just cos i saw he was having a hard time financially and i thought it would be a nice thank you/merry christmas type of thing...i know i would have enjoyed it. well, its turns out when i went to my info page to look up his e-mail address, he had deleted me from his friends list. i guess im boring? so much for charitable giving.

i dont know why it bothers me so much, i just kinda thought we were sorta friends. now i feel embarassed that i would even think of doing that for someone i barely talk to anymore, but i thought deserved something nice.

im super excited for my christmas party. oh man its gonna rock like...er hard? i gotta start getting things together. does anyone have any good drink suggestions? i was thinking it would be totally cute to have little mixed drink recipe cards set up around the table. laura and i are going to be the party throwing masters, soon. We are classy, for serious. No really...its a formal shindig. It's kinda like a total high school reunion, seriously. Okay...I'm done. See, I'm updating more...none of you seem to be noticing but thats cool. I miss you guys boohoo.