Because we don't know how.

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So I realized this evening.
I talk so much about how I think people never change, and I realized it's because I am afraid that I am incapable of change.
Things happen in my life that show without a doubt that people change, but I am so afraid of not changing that I cling to this ridiculous philosophy that people, in fact, stay the same.
I am pursuing, quite vigorously, a degree in a field that is completely dedicated to individual change. And I would be one of the biggest hypocrites ever to exist to say that I don't think change is possible.
Because I will be, within a couple of years, dedicating my life to helping people realize they have the beautiful capacity to change.
And before I ever do that, I need to realize that I have the beautiful capacity to change as well.
Everyone changes, everyday.
Everyone has the potential to change.
And I need to stop pretending that we don't. Because being afraid that I am going to stay hopelessly the same is ridiculous.
Life is about change, and I need to embrace that.
Old habits die hard, yes. But the new habits are, in the end, worth the suffering.
And I honestly believe that.

And yes, I'm waiting for you. But that'll change too if nothing happens here.