if wishes were fishes the sea would be full
Alaster and I have always been terrible at "good-byes." But I think it's romantic and important- and if saying good-bye started getting easier, I would probably worry. Actually, I would worry. A lot. Because I tend to worry about everything small and unimportant almost as much as I worry about the big, life-altering stuff (what classes do I want to take, is she angry at me, I wish I could find a nice swimsuit, etc).
I'm not entirely convinced that it's impossible for people to change. I guess there is potential, not much, but I can't completely write off that it's there. I just feel it's pretty damn near impossible for a person to change at this point and we often mistake other changes in our lives as personal ones. I guess the "trying to change" is the important part. Instead of changing completely maybe we'll just form new habits that in the end, become a part of us. That would count for change. I'm rambling. But I am trying. To change, that is. Maybe change isn't the right word.
I'm trying to be better. For myself, and for you.
I'm not entirely convinced that it's impossible for people to change. I guess there is potential, not much, but I can't completely write off that it's there. I just feel it's pretty damn near impossible for a person to change at this point and we often mistake other changes in our lives as personal ones. I guess the "trying to change" is the important part. Instead of changing completely maybe we'll just form new habits that in the end, become a part of us. That would count for change. I'm rambling. But I am trying. To change, that is. Maybe change isn't the right word.
I'm trying to be better. For myself, and for you.