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Well...last week good but it wasnt all that bad...school sucks.
friday I watched a few james dean movies..wow he's an amazing actor and
I could watch his movies over and over again, he's just
brilliant! saturday me and mandi went to the mall, got molested
by a gay guy, critisized by del so it was all fun...sunday was ok mandi
katherine and i had yummy ribs and such..sunday night well I don't know
what was wrong with me I don't know if it was pms or what but I was
really emotional I just felt like crying..and after youth group I was
talking to my mom and couldnt help but cry so I had to go to my room
and compose myself...that took about an hour I couldnt stop I don't
know what my deal is..I guess I can't go for more than a week without a
break down....well heres hopes for this week being good. I guess I just
feel lost, left behind, left out, confused, lonley I dunno I just can't
wait until summer I just really want to start over in a new place where
no one knows me and I don't have to live with my family and everything
can just be new so I can do things differently and ah I don't
know. james dean is my hero and I think all his movies...all his
charecters are me in one way or another.