and it's just so hard to focus through all of this doubt
i would like to compose a prelude to this entry comprising my official warning to any person currently viewing this journal: i write what comes to my head at this very moment. i can't tell a whole story because it's just too much. the rest of the story is either in my head or in my real journal at home. if you know me you may request the whole story and i may or may not divulge it to you. for the inopportune passersby...i don't care if you indulge yourselves by enjoying my life stories but do not repeat them or make assumptions because chances are you don't know the whole story...i don't usually tell it. i suppose that whole speech sounded a bit ornary...it wasn't supposed to. so i'm not really that bitch emo standoffish leave me alone and die.
la famillia twill be arriving tomorrow but first the nameless is going to come to my house and finish season 1 of Veronica Mars (the best show on TV) with me. she won't let me finish it without her even though she's already seen it because she wants to see my reaction.
i love new years because it is the only time ever the whole family is together accept for ellen but we all overlook that. however, this year scott isn't coming that loser. something about his girlfriend i don't know. i supopse if i was almost 50 and was enjoying my first house and a REAL girlfriend instead of a cheap hooker slorehead like Stacy, i might stay home too. plus his kid Cruz isn't too high on these family things. thats not cool because cruz is my entertainment with the poker and the coffee. and brit is all in college and won't go anywhere without dustin that fopish beast. but whatever....twill be fun anyway with just steve=familia, rob=familia, and julie=familia. whatever plus bitty will be there as always and of course claire...possibly lucy. haven'y decided how good of an idea THAT would be yet. THAT's a pulse checker for Moses right there!