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today at work was fucking stupid.
i dont even know whats going on any more.
just to share, i am at a low point right now in my life, everything and everyone is really sketchy.
im really uncomfortable.
i hate being in my apartment, it always feels cluttered and dirty and i just dont like being here.
theres no warmth here, or identity of "home". it fucking sucks.
in a few minutes, im going to go through my clothes, and throw at least 75% of this shit away.
im doing to dissasemble these stupid giant desks that take up so much fucking space in my house.
im incredibly fustrated right now, i hate all of these things that i dont need in my life, taking up more space than necessary.
i dont like losing good people over petty bullshit.
so, i need to talk to selina.
i often speak with out thinking things out, and the words come out faster than i can grasp them. im anything but nonconfrontational, and sometimes that overwhelms people who are. ive actually caught myself saying things, and not hearing them until the same time persons i am speaking to hear them. does this make sense? it makes impossible to lie.
which i guess isnt a bad thing.
it makes me blunt.
on several occasions, it has occured to me that i infact do miss some aspects of being in a relationship.
being a cold hearted bitch isnt always easy.
being melodramatic is.
i dont even know whats going on any more.
just to share, i am at a low point right now in my life, everything and everyone is really sketchy.
im really uncomfortable.
i hate being in my apartment, it always feels cluttered and dirty and i just dont like being here.
theres no warmth here, or identity of "home". it fucking sucks.
in a few minutes, im going to go through my clothes, and throw at least 75% of this shit away.
im doing to dissasemble these stupid giant desks that take up so much fucking space in my house.
im incredibly fustrated right now, i hate all of these things that i dont need in my life, taking up more space than necessary.
i dont like losing good people over petty bullshit.
so, i need to talk to selina.
i often speak with out thinking things out, and the words come out faster than i can grasp them. im anything but nonconfrontational, and sometimes that overwhelms people who are. ive actually caught myself saying things, and not hearing them until the same time persons i am speaking to hear them. does this make sense? it makes impossible to lie.
which i guess isnt a bad thing.
it makes me blunt.
on several occasions, it has occured to me that i infact do miss some aspects of being in a relationship.
being a cold hearted bitch isnt always easy.
being melodramatic is.