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Good morning, all! or good afternoon, good evening - whatever.. but it's 9am here, so for me it's good morning. how's everyone doing? i couldn't get to sleep for shit last night. literally spent hours tossing and turning... but hey, what's new? question: does anyone take any sleep meds, not like prescribed or anything, but like tylenol pm or something? something not too extreme. i'm tired of these dark circles under my eyes and i know it's because i'm sleep-deprived. it also sucks because during the day i'm soo low on energy. i need to start working out again, but i feel too fat to go to the gym.. (i'm so clueless- that's WHY people go in the first place.)
i'm supposed to be going out tonight.. probably just to a friend's 'kick-it' kinda thing. get drunk.. and high off something.. most likely..
something ultra-depressing: so remember how i told you i couldn't sleep last night. got up. went outside to smoke a cigarette.. and i was feeling helluv lonely so i went in my phonebook trying to find someone to call. just to call. and say hi. and talk. and conversate. but i literally had no one to call.. like i have no friends anymore.. i know it's my fault tho because i've shut them all out of my life. i don't know how many times my friends tried to reach out to me.. but i just wanted to be alone. i hate being alone now. it sucks. i need friends. i want to be normal again. i'm so lonely in everything i do.. even in the most crowded room, i still feel so terribly lonely.
i'm supposed to be going out tonight.. probably just to a friend's 'kick-it' kinda thing. get drunk.. and high off something.. most likely..
something ultra-depressing: so remember how i told you i couldn't sleep last night. got up. went outside to smoke a cigarette.. and i was feeling helluv lonely so i went in my phonebook trying to find someone to call. just to call. and say hi. and talk. and conversate. but i literally had no one to call.. like i have no friends anymore.. i know it's my fault tho because i've shut them all out of my life. i don't know how many times my friends tried to reach out to me.. but i just wanted to be alone. i hate being alone now. it sucks. i need friends. i want to be normal again. i'm so lonely in everything i do.. even in the most crowded room, i still feel so terribly lonely.