Hit The Ground Eating
I failed miserably today. I ate far too much. Tortilla chips are the devil.
It confuses me, If I am so afraid of gaining weight, why do I eat so much?
I'm gaining weight. I can see it. I can feel it.. man o man can I feel it..
I don't understand myself. I'm just a weak, weak person, with no self-control.
Tyra's on right now.. the show is about women with strange eating habits.. Really strange ones actually; girls eating toilet paper, chalk, and THEIR OWN SCABS. Now that's just gross.
So, i'm going to take a break from posting to the communities for a while. Mostly just brains _omnomnom tho, because I was banned from ProAnorexia a while back.. ima troll. yaa.. okay.
Anyways I feel hella invisible when I post there, so I figure what the hell is the point in posting anymore =( i'll still comment on posts where I think I might be some help..
I just need to get my own shit together. I've been binging like a robot lately. Just sitting around and eating - what the fuck is wrong with me?! I swear.... this is the worst i've been lately. =( too much self-loathing going on here. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. This is ridiculous. I cannot get fat. CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT.
It confuses me, If I am so afraid of gaining weight, why do I eat so much?
I'm gaining weight. I can see it. I can feel it.. man o man can I feel it..
I don't understand myself. I'm just a weak, weak person, with no self-control.
Tyra's on right now.. the show is about women with strange eating habits.. Really strange ones actually; girls eating toilet paper, chalk, and THEIR OWN SCABS. Now that's just gross.
So, i'm going to take a break from posting to the communities for a while. Mostly just brains _omnomnom tho, because I was banned from ProAnorexia a while back.. ima troll. yaa.. okay.
Anyways I feel hella invisible when I post there, so I figure what the hell is the point in posting anymore =( i'll still comment on posts where I think I might be some help..
I just need to get my own shit together. I've been binging like a robot lately. Just sitting around and eating - what the fuck is wrong with me?! I swear.... this is the worst i've been lately. =( too much self-loathing going on here. I need to stop feeling sorry for myself. This is ridiculous. I cannot get fat. CANNOT CANNOT CANNOT.