Im damaged as im sure you know...

[colormebeautful]

"I understand everything that you said. Completely. I just wanted to show you that I don't know what to do because of the ups and downs like that. I never said this was your fault. I said I took complete blame for it all. I just want you happy thats all. I just wanted you to focus on what you needed. I love you and your more than i could have ever

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[strictlylickly]

has an equal and opposite reaction. You told me you didnt want to be with me. You said to get over myself. You question why i'm a bitch to you when you broke my heart. You know what...what else would you expect? You're right....you've ruined lives, in particular mine. You strung me along and hit me hardest when you knew i was happy with someone. funny how you never apologized so much except when you saw how happy i was with hannah. you're so afraid of losing me...afraid of losing your backup plan. you're terrified to know that when all else fails, lindsay isnt there to pick up the pieces and kiss the wounds. well, i cant be that person. Just as you did so many times, i broke a promise. i cant be your doormat. i cant sit back and watch you flaunt your life with other people in my face. i never asked for any of this. all i ever wanted was to be your one and only. all i ever wanted was to give you all that i am and all that i have. and i realize now how vain and empty those wishes were. it's amusing to me how surprised you are at how things have turned out between us. what did you expect? for me to just be okay with all of this? with all that you've done? Are you serious? i hope that one day you find who you are and what you want. God knows it takes a stronger person than me to get you there.