For me to end this madness...I don't know if I want to continue this live journal thing or not. I only really use it when there is alot on my mind. Lets start with this week
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THIS MAGIC MOMENT!!!!strictlylicklyDecember 13 2004, 19:26:24 UTC
haha...all that unspoken chemistry...the magical stares, the heartbeating so loudly when he kisses you...blah blah blah...fun stuff! good luck with him.
anyway, we havent spoken because there's nothing to talk about. we're not how we used to be. we cant be how you want us to be. i'm doing better by just not talking to you because i dont hurt. i'm not miserable. i dont know. it's weird. i miss you, but not really. you just dont have time for me anymore. you never call to see what's up. you're always with josh and laura...and that's totally cool, i'm glad you're happy. but dont make it out to be like i've done it and it's my fault because i have hoes and such. i'm doing what you told me to do. i'm having fun, i'm happy. i dont need to be invited to your little get fucked up parties and such. sobriety really ISNT all that bad! but, i'm not going to harp. i do love you. i do wish that things could have been different, but hell, i did all i possibly could. i guess this is just how we were meant to be. take care, and know that you are always in my heart...
anyway, we havent spoken because there's nothing to talk about. we're not how we used to be. we cant be how you want us to be. i'm doing better by just not talking to you because i dont hurt. i'm not miserable. i dont know. it's weird. i miss you, but not really. you just dont have time for me anymore. you never call to see what's up. you're always with josh and laura...and that's totally cool, i'm glad you're happy. but dont make it out to be like i've done it and it's my fault because i have hoes and such. i'm doing what you told me to do. i'm having fun, i'm happy. i dont need to be invited to your little get fucked up parties and such. sobriety really ISNT all that bad! but, i'm not going to harp. i do love you. i do wish that things could have been different, but hell, i did all i possibly could. i guess this is just how we were meant to be. take care, and know that you are always in my heart...
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