Carissa's wierd "You should be hated here"

[colormealone]

they're all surrounding
we're both hoping
failing slowly
attempting one thing to stand up
with dignity
to walk away

do the time to prove it all

the new lines
wrapped my eyes around
the scars upon my head
were only meant
to spell apologies
there's a tent of guarentees inside
was impossible to find
but until you find me
standing stupid looking blind

i could do anything
right
to say that you were wrong

this night is guaranteed to all turn black
with memories that haunt the past

i'm only here to fall apart
you've been angry from the start
but i know these trainwrecks happen all the time

everything that no one knows
you should be hated here by now
this was the prettiest lie that i told tonight
it's been the prettiest lie that i told all year
the unmade bed inside the room
where i don't feel comfortable at all
where blankets stare at me for hours
and i stare right back so self righteously

it could be now
and i don't feel proud
i'm so sorry now
i'm sorry now

and it all comes down to composure that's been lost
when it all comes down to composure that's been lost

- so you want to be a superhero?

"my dream are full of what's not real
i'll fly away and save the world
i'll make you proud someday
i just won't be around to see your face
my life is full of what's not here
i'll go away and save myself
i'll make you proud today
i just won't be around to see your face"

Fuck, I love this cd.