clawrissa wants to cuddle
don't get me wrong. things are good. i just feel numb to pretty much everything and i can't really say why cuz i have no fuckin idea why. i just do. maybe i've just reached a breaking point where ya just stop feeling...? or maybe i'm just bored of anything and everything.
maybe i've outgrown anything and everything.
all i really want to do lately is play at work, sleep, lay on a tropical beach, hang out with my cat, and see chris. that's it.
today was the last day of eagle. summer camp is real now. and it starts in less than two weeks.
maybe my apathy is due to an unconscious realization of my diminishing funds. i think about it pretty much everyday. and this vacation i'm trying to plan isn't helping. it's getting to the point where i am actually afraid to even go anywhere although i know that after camp i am going to need it more than ever.
that trip to the bahamas seemed perfect until we realized i'd need a passport.
i'm bloated and fat, but too tired to work out. i am always too tired. i think there must be something physically wrong with me seeing as i always feel drained. and if i do not look good in a bathing suit i don't even know if i will want to go on vacation. because all i want my vacation to entail is lying on the beach under pretty palm trees while dipping my toes into crystal blue waters.
maybe i've outgrown anything and everything.
all i really want to do lately is play at work, sleep, lay on a tropical beach, hang out with my cat, and see chris. that's it.
today was the last day of eagle. summer camp is real now. and it starts in less than two weeks.
maybe my apathy is due to an unconscious realization of my diminishing funds. i think about it pretty much everyday. and this vacation i'm trying to plan isn't helping. it's getting to the point where i am actually afraid to even go anywhere although i know that after camp i am going to need it more than ever.
that trip to the bahamas seemed perfect until we realized i'd need a passport.
i'm bloated and fat, but too tired to work out. i am always too tired. i think there must be something physically wrong with me seeing as i always feel drained. and if i do not look good in a bathing suit i don't even know if i will want to go on vacation. because all i want my vacation to entail is lying on the beach under pretty palm trees while dipping my toes into crystal blue waters.