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everyone seems to have done something incredibly fun over break... well i did too, but it wasnt a huge big mondo deal. i took time the last two weeks to just enjoy life. i noticed so many things that i had no idea i was missing. the times ive re-anaylzed myself ive realized how lost ive become. I mean, my life has been molded and shaped by things other people expect of me and things they want me to do. i havent been myself... my true self. ive been this other thing that goes around pleasing everybody. so now that ive realized what needs fixing im at an impass. how to change? ok so i know its going to be difficult and i guess i should take it one step at a time... but whats the first step? how do i get started?
and then ive spent this break pondering how to make a difference. im unfortunately one of those people with awesome ideas that really wants to help, but doesnt have the courage to put myself out there. course i could blame this insecurity on so many things, but i guess it just comes down to me being too afraid to change. so how do i get over this? im told the first step to overcoming a fear is to acknowledge it and then face it head on. ok well this isnt exactly ur normal runin the mill fear... so im not sure how to face it head on
the sad thing about life is that we could spend our entire lives with someone and still really not know that person at all. sure we could learn about their habits and likes and dislikes and what they want and dont want but i mean to really get to know someone... thats just something that cant be done. i mean how is someone supposed to understand and really know me when i dont even really know myself. thats a funny thing... how could someone really not know themselves? we has a species change all the time... so it would make sense to say that we really never know ourselves or others... so why are we here? if what im speculating is true then what is it that makes us so special?
just some food for thought
and then ive spent this break pondering how to make a difference. im unfortunately one of those people with awesome ideas that really wants to help, but doesnt have the courage to put myself out there. course i could blame this insecurity on so many things, but i guess it just comes down to me being too afraid to change. so how do i get over this? im told the first step to overcoming a fear is to acknowledge it and then face it head on. ok well this isnt exactly ur normal runin the mill fear... so im not sure how to face it head on
the sad thing about life is that we could spend our entire lives with someone and still really not know that person at all. sure we could learn about their habits and likes and dislikes and what they want and dont want but i mean to really get to know someone... thats just something that cant be done. i mean how is someone supposed to understand and really know me when i dont even really know myself. thats a funny thing... how could someone really not know themselves? we has a species change all the time... so it would make sense to say that we really never know ourselves or others... so why are we here? if what im speculating is true then what is it that makes us so special?
just some food for thought