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Yesterday sucked.
Just, everything.
I almost started crying at work.
Which made me feel dumb.
But once I got outside in the sun I cheered up a bit.
I wish I believed myself.
And everyone else for the matter.
Because we all know the truth.
But the only one I believe is him.
It took me two hours to fall asleep,
until I fell asleep for 30 minutes,
and then his mom brought me home.
During those two hours...
I texted.
Listened to music.
Panicked.
Cried.
And something I should've done.
Which upset me the most.
Honestly, without offense to anyone.
This is vague for a reason.
If I want to talk about in depth with you,
I will, or already have.
That's not to say I'm trying to keep things from you.
I just know what you're going to say.
Why can't something just be right?
I want Derek here.
And I want to get to know him.
And be his friend.
I want a boy to show that he actually cares,
and likes me.
EVENTHOUGHITHOUGHTTHATWASWHATWASHAPPENING.
ijustwantaboyfriend,andit'spathetic.
Just, everything.
I almost started crying at work.
Which made me feel dumb.
But once I got outside in the sun I cheered up a bit.
I wish I believed myself.
And everyone else for the matter.
Because we all know the truth.
But the only one I believe is him.
It took me two hours to fall asleep,
until I fell asleep for 30 minutes,
and then his mom brought me home.
During those two hours...
I texted.
Listened to music.
Panicked.
Cried.
And something I should've done.
Which upset me the most.
Honestly, without offense to anyone.
This is vague for a reason.
If I want to talk about in depth with you,
I will, or already have.
That's not to say I'm trying to keep things from you.
I just know what you're going to say.
Why can't something just be right?
I want Derek here.
And I want to get to know him.
And be his friend.
I want a boy to show that he actually cares,
and likes me.
EVENTHOUGHITHOUGHTTHATWASWHATWASHAPPENING.
ijustwantaboyfriend,andit'spathetic.