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i miss being in love.
being happy.
and forgiving.
and wanting to tell the whole goddamn world about it.
i miss the reassurance.
... just knowing.
which is funny,
because i'm not even 100% sure i had that.
i have all these tiny memories.
and images in my head.
and they're not going away.
not anytime soon.
it's not that i compare people to it / him.
it's just me being able to tell that i won't be able to have that with a certain given person.
and it's throwing me off.
being happy.
and forgiving.
and wanting to tell the whole goddamn world about it.
i miss the reassurance.
... just knowing.
which is funny,
because i'm not even 100% sure i had that.
i have all these tiny memories.
and images in my head.
and they're not going away.
not anytime soon.
it's not that i compare people to it / him.
it's just me being able to tell that i won't be able to have that with a certain given person.
and it's throwing me off.