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life doesn't seem right anymore. Living seems stupid but so does dying. Loving seems stupid..but I can't keep my heart from falling and it just when you don't want to love. Loving two different people just isn't what is in my soul but im still falling...deeper and deeper into two holes...it's ripping at both parts of my body and i don't know what to do but die. It hurts so much i just want to give up. not wanting to hurt anyone...but I can't help being in love. Seeing is eyes only after and hour of being awake. Looking at his hands so closely to mine. Hoping him well every second and always wanting to share my life with him but knowing this must wait. Wondering what he really thinks of me..and hoping it will always be the same...why is life so difficult?