everytime i think of him it makes me sick
I broke up with derrick awhile ago...and im not completely sure if that's what i really wanted. of course i still love him and all but i would if i broke up with him or not. the fact taht i couldn't date him anymore was the reason i had to get away. ii haven't talked to him and it's killing me..but i know ill get more upset if i talk to him it will make m e more sick feeling. I have met someone else...but i still feel like something is wrong. i don't know maybe it's just me. i don't feel complete right now. But my relationship with derrick was justso screwed up...i can't go back to it.
I am actually more happy than i thought iwould be but i don't feel like i am happy enough. I don't have a clue what i am doing....
I have brandon and he makes me very happy. he isn't too attatched...but still there for me without over doing it. He doesn't push me, and i actually trust him more than some of the people i know.
Cookie doens't talk to me as much as she used t and i feel like i have lost a lot of my friends lately....everything sucks.
but i am happy with my brandon. he truely makes me happier than i should be.
I am actually more happy than i thought iwould be but i don't feel like i am happy enough. I don't have a clue what i am doing....
I have brandon and he makes me very happy. he isn't too attatched...but still there for me without over doing it. He doesn't push me, and i actually trust him more than some of the people i know.
Cookie doens't talk to me as much as she used t and i feel like i have lost a lot of my friends lately....everything sucks.
but i am happy with my brandon. he truely makes me happier than i should be.