Smile and say hello.
I salted a wound today. Literally. It hurt. Seriously.
Yesterday i was feeling quite depressed again, of course. I didn't know what to do but i needed to do something. Crying would have been preferable, but i couldn't find anything to cry over.
Anyways, i ended up taking Kane to Woodland park. When i was unloading him from the car this woman with two Siberian Huskies stopped and asked me if he was a Malamute or a Husky. I smiled and talked to her for a few breif moments about the dogs while Kane and her huskies aquainted themselves. Then these boys, probably about my age or maybe a little younger or older, rode by on bikes. One of them kind of made a 'Wow' expression and said "Those are all three beautiful dogs." I flashed a smile and said "Yeah, thanks." or something. Then one of the woman's dogs started to act kind of timid so she was starting to leave. This other boy then went by on a bike and just kind of gave a smile and nodded. It made me feel so much better, even if only for a few moments.
Just the woman with her dogs, and how nice and amiable all those boys seemed and how i could just smile at them and how i didn't feel all self conscious or awkward by having someone say hi/smile/aknowledge me and how Kane was so good about everything and how beautiful the dogs really were.
It remined me of the play that i think Ben wrote about the woman/angel teaching people to take time and say hello and smile. It seems like such a cliche, but god i could relate at that time. I just felt so much better for a good portion of my walk.
School's getting intense and rather stressful. The sad thing is that i think i'm more stressed about losing it. I like school now. After if am i still going to have people to turn to? School's my main socialization. What about all the fairly close friends that i have at school that i'll probably never really see again? What if i don't have help and support offered to me like that anymore?
I showed Wes what i have so far of Romeo and Juliet on the computer. He actually seemed quite satisfied with it, which was fairly surprising. Maybe i just think it sucks because i have to watch it over and over and exaggerate every flaw and mistake. God knows i'm like that with myself.
I'm running out of time on all this stuff. I guess there's just three weeks of school left. SO much to accomplish.
I have some American Culture projects due, that i'm not at all sure that i'll actually do... because Mr. Guthrie is so frustrating. I was thinking that if i do the presentation, i'd do it on Montgomery Clift because i already know a lot about him and he's really interesting.
For the report i haven't yet decided. I want to ask if i could research Dr. Suess. I don't think he'll let me, though.
Otherwise i'm considering Gene Krupa. I don't know if he's interesting or anything, and i know nothing about him. Chosing to research him would be simply on the fact that the few crazy-ass drum solos that i've heard from him can bring me to near orgasm.
Well, you know. One of those drum solo orgasms.
Definitely asexual.
-So i don't forget-
Release Dates!
May 17 - The Adventures of Pete and Pete - Season 1
May 17 - Clarissa Explains It All
July 19 - Crow: Wicked Prayer
Wicked prayer is supposed to have a bad ass soundtrack. Supposedly that's why it took so long to get a release date on it - they were still compiling/putting together the soundtrack.
I love Edward Furlong.
Yesterday i was feeling quite depressed again, of course. I didn't know what to do but i needed to do something. Crying would have been preferable, but i couldn't find anything to cry over.
Anyways, i ended up taking Kane to Woodland park. When i was unloading him from the car this woman with two Siberian Huskies stopped and asked me if he was a Malamute or a Husky. I smiled and talked to her for a few breif moments about the dogs while Kane and her huskies aquainted themselves. Then these boys, probably about my age or maybe a little younger or older, rode by on bikes. One of them kind of made a 'Wow' expression and said "Those are all three beautiful dogs." I flashed a smile and said "Yeah, thanks." or something. Then one of the woman's dogs started to act kind of timid so she was starting to leave. This other boy then went by on a bike and just kind of gave a smile and nodded. It made me feel so much better, even if only for a few moments.
Just the woman with her dogs, and how nice and amiable all those boys seemed and how i could just smile at them and how i didn't feel all self conscious or awkward by having someone say hi/smile/aknowledge me and how Kane was so good about everything and how beautiful the dogs really were.
It remined me of the play that i think Ben wrote about the woman/angel teaching people to take time and say hello and smile. It seems like such a cliche, but god i could relate at that time. I just felt so much better for a good portion of my walk.
School's getting intense and rather stressful. The sad thing is that i think i'm more stressed about losing it. I like school now. After if am i still going to have people to turn to? School's my main socialization. What about all the fairly close friends that i have at school that i'll probably never really see again? What if i don't have help and support offered to me like that anymore?
I showed Wes what i have so far of Romeo and Juliet on the computer. He actually seemed quite satisfied with it, which was fairly surprising. Maybe i just think it sucks because i have to watch it over and over and exaggerate every flaw and mistake. God knows i'm like that with myself.
I'm running out of time on all this stuff. I guess there's just three weeks of school left. SO much to accomplish.
I have some American Culture projects due, that i'm not at all sure that i'll actually do... because Mr. Guthrie is so frustrating. I was thinking that if i do the presentation, i'd do it on Montgomery Clift because i already know a lot about him and he's really interesting.
For the report i haven't yet decided. I want to ask if i could research Dr. Suess. I don't think he'll let me, though.
Otherwise i'm considering Gene Krupa. I don't know if he's interesting or anything, and i know nothing about him. Chosing to research him would be simply on the fact that the few crazy-ass drum solos that i've heard from him can bring me to near orgasm.
Well, you know. One of those drum solo orgasms.
Definitely asexual.
-So i don't forget-
Release Dates!
May 17 - The Adventures of Pete and Pete - Season 1
May 17 - Clarissa Explains It All
July 19 - Crow: Wicked Prayer
Wicked prayer is supposed to have a bad ass soundtrack. Supposedly that's why it took so long to get a release date on it - they were still compiling/putting together the soundtrack.
I love Edward Furlong.