You Need To Shit Before We Leave Home From Now On.
You know that movie about Motzart called "Amedeus", even though i'm sure i massacred the spelling? Anyways, i really enjoyed that movie. We watched it in music class at the end of my junior year, which would be last year. I really kind of feel like i relate to the second main character guy. Ooh, it's bothering me that i can't remember his name. He'
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Earlier today I was reading through your info on LJ and I couldn't stop thinking about how cool you are and how random it is that I know you and am friends with you, yet have never really taken the time to figure out what makes you tick. Last year you always made me feel so good by giving me high fives in the halls and just being your unique self, and yet I never really went out of my way to make you feel included or to let you know that I think you are awesome. So for that, Katy, I'm sorry.
Secondly, about the having potential thing and getting the 'you're so talented and you need to change this whole confidence thing so you can use your ability' shpiels... I got them and still get them all the time and they drive me insane. I think just because you have the potential to do something doesn't necessarily mean that you need to do it. But I do think that you are such an amazing individual, you need to realize it for yourself and have the confidence that you ought to have. I really miss you and Laura and how I can completely be myself around you guys...I just wish that I could make it so that you never feel awkward and that you always use your potential because I dont want you to waste your ability by feeling downtrodden the way I did in High School.
Um, you rock and I miss you and I hope I can come back for a little while so I can hang out with you and Laura again.
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Yeah, i really kind of feel the same thing about us being friends... but not really... uh close friends? Like, i've never actually really talked to you or anything.
I loved seeing you in the halls last year towards the end. I was just in a constantly happy mood all of the end of the year, and every time i saw you i just randomly felt like smiling. I don't even really know why... ha, except that i think you just have the ability to do that to some people. It's really rad to know you think i'm cool and unique. That made me smile big time too. Ha. And just made my day.
Ha ha. Now wait a minute, Steven! You just gave me one of those 'you can do it but and you should ahve some confidence' things! Come on! Heh. Okay, fine. You said it in a much more thought provoking way.
The thing is i usually do want to use the potential and just... can't. Yeah. It's frustrateing but, i don't know, i'm already getting way better at it than i was a few years ago or whatever.
I totally would love for you to visit again and we could just all lay around at Laura's house and listen to music and maybe even talk. Heh. That would be just lovely. It'll happen again, i'm sure. I can't wait.
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